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Post by cherry1 on Oct 23, 2016 23:35:52 GMT
Her eyes flickered up to his when he told her she wasn’t crazy for feeling this way without…her. It was reassuring to know he thought so. Perhaps he was right, maybe she just needed a little more time to get used to just being herself again. And not that mindless drone A.L.I.E ordered around. His assurances were appreciated but did little to tone down the paranoia that had settled within her. “My gut?” she scoffed. “Whole lot of good my instincts have done me lately.” Her instincts after all are what got her in this mess in the first place. Her weakness did this to them. She shouldn’t have listened to Jaha and taken that stupid pill. She should’ve just dealt with her pain like the rest of them.
“I couldn’t even hold her off for Abby and everyone else,” she looked away from him now. “I…I failed them.” She’d failed them the moment she took the so called key. Gena’s death it seemed had been the tipping point. What finally pushed her over the edge and into A.L.I.E.’s arms. It seemed so stupid now. But she couldn’t take it back. Just like she couldn’t take back those awful things she’d said to them. “All my instincts are telling me now is to stay alert.” Just in case. Because Raven couldn’t bare to cause them more pain than she already had. “I can’t even…close my eyes, because every single time I do…” She felt like a kid complaining about a nightmare. But there was really no other way to describe it. It had been a nightmare.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 23, 2016 22:45:28 GMT
She almost laughed at his response as he took the teasing words in stride. But she didn’t have time to before he pinned her body against the car with his own pressed hard against her. He was taking control, dominating her body the way she always liked to. But in this case Raven really didn’t mind. It was exhilarating, this…push and pull of power between them as he slammed into her body. Forcing every breath to come out as the most obscene moan each time he pushed into her, as deep as he could go. And he sure didn’t disappoint. Taking her direction to heart. “Ah,” her face twisted almost as if she was in pain. “Yes.” She couldn’t help but say when he brought his hand between them pressing against her. Her body involuntarily arching up into his. It was all she could do not to cry out from the sheer pleasure of it, the friction it added between their hot and sweating bodies.
With one hand pinned against the car, she used her other to rake her nails down his body, definitely leaving a mark this time. She felt the pressure building in her core as she tightened around him, she was so close, each hard and fast thrust bringing her nearer to completion and the earth shattering orgasm she knew their actions would bring. It wasn’t even about that. She was enjoying every second of it and Raven didn’t want it to end.
But with that thought, her body had other ideas, seeking that high. With her one healthy leg wrapped around him she pushed even tighter against his waist as she shifted beneath him, changing the angle. With the hand that possibly drew blood down his back she met his own between their bodies, directing it to exactly where it needed to go to wring the most pleasure out of her. Meeting every push with frantic need, more urgent, faster, harder…. “I’m almost…” she began, unable to finish the words. Biting down on his shoulder to muffle the groan instead as the pleasure ripped through her entire body. She tensed beneath him, tightening around his length inside her as she just rode wave after wave of it hitting her with every thrust.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 21, 2016 1:47:05 GMT
With uni and my current schedule even 300 might be a bit of a stretch so I'm gonna have...
Raven's post goal be: 400 posts HAHAHAHAHA!
JUST BECAUSE! YOU NEVER KNOW Lets give this a go shall we....
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 19, 2016 1:07:58 GMT
The way he looked at her, with blatant want and hunger in his eyes made body heat up. In that moment she finally felt confident in her own skin, the insecurities that plagued her because of her changing body evaporated. He made her feel…sexy. And Raven revelled in it. She hadn’t felt this way in so long, and couldn’t help but feel almost grateful that Bellamy in just one look had returned the familiar sensation. Like she was really in control of her body, instead of it being in control of her.
The sentiment wasn’t one sided. Raven’s eyes obscenely roamed every inch of Bellamy like she was ready to pounce…because…well she was. Her core was wet and waiting to be filled by him. When he finally approached her she submitted herself to the kiss as he brought them down to the bed. Savouring the taste of him with each stroke of her tongue. With eyes closed as his lips moved further down, her mouth was left half open when his mouth reached her chest. The sensation of his teeth grazing her breast left her gasping, unable to breath from the almost painful pleasure he was giving her. She held his head against her, not wanting him to stop. Never wanting him to stop. She could stay like this forever, only Bellamy had other ideas.
She let out an embarrassingly loud moan when his fingers reached between her legs, just stroking the folds without entering her, or offering her any real release. Raven squirmed beneath him, arching her back to get him closer to her, for friction to provide her with any kind of satisfaction. She couldn’t move or articulate any real thoughts for the moment. Only leaving her body to react to him. “Please…” she choked out, surprised at herself. Raven had never begged for anything in her life. But right now it was all she could do. “I need you inside me,” she said tugging at his pants, waiting for him to finally take them off and give her what she’s been wanting for so long. For too long.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 16, 2016 22:08:33 GMT
He wasn’t giving up. That was something. Hell that was everything. Because she needed him just like she always had, because there was no way she could do this alone. Raven smiled weakly at his rhetorical question. “Only when you stop saving mine,” she replied, trying her best to focus on saving him and not the way his chest rose and fell rapidly now. Like he could hardly breathe. And not on the way the colour had drained from his face. All logic was telling her, yelling at her that there was no way out of this. But Raven had ignored logic before and came out the other side, why couldn’t she do it again.
She was no doctor but even she knew that the first priority was to stop the bleeding. And fast. Lifting his shirt slightly she took a look at the oozing wound. Stitching it up would take too long, and besides she’d need to pull the bullet out first. And that meant moving him away from this place and the immediate threat Emerson posed. “This might hurt a little,” she warned as she reached for lighter in the makeshift kit and grabbed a small blade. “But we need to move you and this is the only way,” her voice broke slightly as she explained herself. Raven hated the thought of causing him more pain, but this was their only option.
She removed her belt and slowly placed it in Sinclair’s mouth so he would have something to bite down on. Holding the flame underneath the blade Raven waited for it to glow red. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, before finally bringing the hot metal down over the wound, cauterizing it. It was a temporary solution, but it would have to do for now. She winced at the sizzling burning skin, but held on to the knowledge that she was one step closer to saving him.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 16, 2016 21:47:19 GMT
Raven felt restless in her bed. She’d been put on mandatory bed rest for what felt like centuries though it couldn’t have been more than a couple of days. She needed to move and get up. But no matter what position she tried to lay down in, Raven would get a shooting pain radiating from her hip. She hadn’t noticed it much before, with the pain being masked by the wounds made from the drills. But after that subsided, Raven became acutely aware of her hip. It was getting to be unbearable but like hell was she going to start complaining. There were so many others who needed more help than her.
Speaking of others, what she really needed was to find Harper. The girl was one of the most important people in her life. She was her family. Part of the reason she’d fought so hard to take down Mount Weather. And a little pain was the price for that then Raven would gladly pay it tenfold if she had to. The only reservation she had to finally finding Harper was the state she was in. She didn’t want her to see Raven like this. She didn’t know about her leg, having been in Mount Weather at the time. Raven was…broken now.
Though all those fears evaporated at the sound of her voice. “Harper?” she let out a pained smile when she turned to look at her, slowly adjusting her position on the bed in order to sit up properly. Squeezing her hand, she shuffled to the opposite side, leaving some room for Harper to sit down. “I’m better on the inside than I look on the outside,” she said with a hollow chuckle. “Come here,” pulling the girls hand down, Raven’s eyes roamed her face. “Let me look at you.”
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 16, 2016 21:44:11 GMT
“Yeah I know Miller, you sir are a lucky guy,” She knew Miller of course. Not particularly well but there was an unspoken bond between those who had been on the ground from the very beginning. Almost the very beginning in her case. But there was no need to think of such traumatic memories now. There would never be any need to think of pain ever again in her case. The thought bringing her even more comfort. Perhaps Miller would be among the next people to take the key and join them in bliss. She couldn’t imagine he’d refuse. She couldn’t imagine why anyone would refuse.
With a smile she appreciated his intrigue in her work. It was the best job in the world after all. “Oh this old thing?” she teased. “This is what’s gonna get that rover on the road.” The excitement in her voice was palpable. Just pure enjoyment in the work she was able to do. “You see these valves?” she asked pulling him by the arm and repositioning the young man next to her to give him a better view. “Right now, theyre rusted half to hell, and can’t run for shit,” she explained. Usually she lacked this sort of patience and preffered to just get on with it, but lately she felt like she had all the time in the world. “But with this,” she picked up a makeshift sand paper machine, “It’ll be good as new.” Her smile remained, stretching into a grin. “Those rovers will be out in no time.” Looking down she put the machine down, staring at the old engine still running after all these years. Well almost running. “What a time to be alive huh?”
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 15, 2016 19:59:27 GMT
Raven Reyes' Soundtrack
If I Had a Boat by: James Vincent McMorrow
Just felt like this song could really work for the cherry1 and @jasper420 relationship!
-------------- Golden, golden, golden river run To the East then drop beneath the sun And as the moon lies low and overhead We're lost
Burn slow, burning up the back wall Long roads, where the city meets the sky Most days, most days stay the sole same Please stay, for this fear it will not die
If I had a boat, I would sail to you Hold you in my arms, ask you to be true Once I had a dream, it died long before Now I'm pointed north, hoping for the shore
Down low, down amongst the thorn rows Weeds grow, through the lilies and the vine Birds play, try to find their own way Soft clay, on your feet and under mine
If I had a boat, I would sail to you Hold you in my arms, ask you to be true Once I had a dream, it died long before Now I'm pointed north, hoping for the shore
Splitting at the seams Heaving at the brace Sheets all billowing Breaking of the day Sea is not my friend And everyone conspires Still I choose to swim Slip beneath the tide
Once I had a dream Once I had a hope That was yesterday Not so long ago This is not the end This is just the world Such a foolish thing Such an honest girl
If I had a boat, I would sail to you Hold you in my arms, ask you to be true Once I had a dream, it died long before Now I'm pointed north, hoping for the shore
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 15, 2016 12:35:43 GMT
"What do find the most relaxing, the most absolute calming, thing to do?"
My job. Fixing things and building weapons...Might say a lot about me that I find the same peace in reapairing the broken and creating the means for destruction...but it keeps my hands busy and mind off everything else so who cares? I'm selfish like that...
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 14, 2016 22:26:45 GMT
“Oh my brain is still all kinds of awesome,” she said with a forced smirk, wiping the tears from her face. Her mind had been in overdrive since A.L.I.E. She was at a whole other level in that regard. Writing code, building, inventing things she couldn’t have even imagined before. The newly found skills were terrifying and something about them felt tainted. Because they came from her. But hell after everything that bitch in the red dress put her through, Raven deserved a little something in return.
But that was the only thing she could hold on to these days. After losing Sinclair most recently, the last person to tell her she could be put back together, Raven was exhausted. She didn’t know how much of it she could bare. Where her threshold was for losing people. “But every time someone…they take parts of me,” she pointed at her chest, not knowing how else to describe it. “With them.” She squeezed the hand he’d put in hers. “We’ve fought so hard to survive this long, you can’t throw that away.” Raven looked down at their joined hands, her eyebrows furrowed. “I need you.” He saved her.
“This,” she said, her other hand on his chest again. “Isn’t just about you breaking, and how ruthless this goddamn place is.” Her hand absentmindedly traced the scar again. “You didn’t heal perfect, and you didn’t heal overnight, but you healed Jasper.” Her eyes on his, she held on to his hand a little tighter. “You can heal again.” She was well aware the physical wound wasn’t the same as what he suffered through every day. Hell she knew that better than most. But it got her point across.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 12, 2016 23:31:40 GMT
She didn’t like his response to her fears about losing him. It put her on edge again. The thought sobering her slightly. But not enough to think before inadvertently asking Jasper to remove his shirt. She was beginning to think it was a bad idea before he complied. Why did she want to see the scar? Because she wanted to see the source for herself maybe? The beginning of Jasper’s journey of realising the ground was a goddamn death trap and the mental deterioration he’d suffered through as a result…Raven wasn’t going to outright say that though. Choosing to go with… “I dunno, curious I guess.” Instead.
He was still being kind to her, still taking her feelings into account despite everything he was going through. It brought a fleeting smile to her face before she dismissed his concerns, waving a hand as he revealed the scar. Her expression wasn’t one of disgust or even pity. It was just one of plain old sadness at the pain she knew he must have endured, pain she was all too familiar with. Without realising, her hand was already on his chest, her fingers brushing each elevation and fall of skin.
“Taking your own life…you wouldn’t just be slipping away,” she began, tracing the pattern as if she was memorising it, burning the sight into her brain. “It’s like a bomb, you’d take a piece of us with you…of everyone who cares about you and…” she let the tears fall, he’d already seen her cry, and it no longer made her feel weak when he did. “I don’t think there’s enough of me left to survive that,” her voice breaking slightly on the last word. When she finally became aware of what she was doing, Raven slowly retracted her hand, staring down for a moment unable to look him in the eye before finally looking up.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 10, 2016 2:48:47 GMT
Raven had her hands busy. Not on anything mechanical however. With just a pen and paper in her hands, she was trying to figure out a way to get A.L.I.E into the system so she could find this other A.I. It was the least she could do after everything the woman in red had done for her. Every day was better than the last. Like she was falling deeper and deeper into the bliss of painlessness. She could hardly even remember what it felt like. The memory itself fading away. Good riddance. Besides, her mind was occupied with more important matters now. She needed to get this done, so that A.L.I.E could reach more people and save them all.
Her efforts however were interrupted by one of the guards. Bryan was it? She wasn’t sure. But she didn’t care much. When he walked in she carefully covered what she was working on with another blank sheet of paper as he spoke. Something about a rover? Shit, the rover. Raven had been so consumed by her duties for A.L.I.E she’d completely neglected everything else. Not to worry though she could just work on it now. With a smile plastered across her face she stood up. “Sure thing,” she began walking towards one of the benches with the abandoned engine she’d been working on before. “I’ll get it up and running in no time.” The smile didn’t waver for a second. Not a common occurrence for Raven.
Taking a closer look at the guard she noticed the tension in his stance, the lines on his face like he hadn’t had a decent nights rest in a while. Perhaps she could hit two birds with one stone? “You alright there?” She asked. “It’s Bryan isn’t it?”
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 9, 2016 19:43:10 GMT
This one? And then she remembered. She wasn’t the only one to suffer a violent injury on the ground. The spear. Raven hadn’t been here at the time, still in space working on how to get down here. So it slipped her mind now. So stupid, this was exactly the kind of thing Monty or Harper or anyone else would have avoided saying. So of course Raven passively mentioned scars. One of her own an ugly reminder of the injury she suffered through every day. The long messed up jagged line from the bullet wound and the scalpel used to open her up and pull it out. She shivered at the painful memory. Now was not the time to be thinking about her own pain. It was time to help Jasper work through at least some of his. They could try and fix Raven later.
Then he started talking. Hesitantly at first. But it was something. Perhaps scars hadn’t been such a bad idea after all if it got them past the tense small talk to something real. But his words were painful. For him to say…and for her to hear. Raven’s experiences with feeling broken were too real and raw, it’s what she hoped the pill would fix. “You’re not just broken, Jasper.” Because telling him that he wasn’t broken at all would be an insensitive lie. It was nobody else’s right to dictate how you feel. “You are so much more than you think you are. I’ve always known that.” He just needed to know that too. “And if you…if you weren’t here I just…” she couldn’t even put it into words. Afraid of what that very real possibility would do to her.
“Can I see it?” She asked before she could stop herself. The alcohol removing any sort of filter she would have had otherwise. “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.” She offered, as a sort of compromise for the unusual request.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 6, 2016 9:52:39 GMT
The Raven that she knew…. Did she even exist anymore? “Then you don’t know me very well, at least not anymore.” The ground had taken that away from her. “The Raven you know died along with every other freaking person in my life.” Every loss slowly chipping away at her soul until this. And now Gena…there wasn’t enough of Raven left to suffer through another loss and come out the other side as any kind of real person. “So don’t talk to me about Raven Reyes.” She was just a shadow now…a curse who destroyed everything she touched. Raven had been a fool to think that some companionship and bomb practice could alleviate that pain. All it had done was aggravate it.
“This was a bad idea, Nina.” Perhaps it was time to call it a day. And go back to hiding from everyone in her workshop. She didn’t have the energy for arrogance. This recent loss had hit her hard. She wasn’t the girl who could do anything anymore. She was the girl who couldn’t save those people and couldn’t even save her friend. Nina would do well to stay away unless she wanted to get hurt too. Raven didn’t want any more blood on her hands. They were already soaked enough as it is. “Let’s just go.” No need for any further humiliation. Though Raven didn’t even have it in her to feel that. Taking the pieces of the remote she stuffed them back in her bag and stood. Ready to fetch the unexploded bomb and deactivate it.
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Post by cherry1 on Oct 5, 2016 23:23:08 GMT
Raven hadn’t felt this happy in ages. This is exactly the type of party everyone needed and for once she was allowing herself to enjoy it. To just be present in this celebration of love. And she couldn’t think of anyone who deserved it more than Bellamy. He’d always had her back, and now it was her pleasure to be there for him on one of the happiest days of his life. He’d been to hell and back, and to hell again, so if he could make it to here. To this. It didn’t just bring her joy for the first time in too long but it gave her hope too. Maybe the ground didn’t just have to be about survival. Maybe it could really be about actually living.
Seeing everyone bask in the positive energy was enough for now. Even the pain in her hip had subsided. Raven was content to just sit and watch from the sidelines as everyone celebrated Bellamy and Jackson beginning their lives together. She’d already shown them what it meant to her with the wedding gift. Bellamy it seemed though…had other ideas. She watched with a smile on her face to match his own as he approached her. “Hey yourself,” she replied. If she didn’t know any better Raven could almost think he was about to…“Bellamy Blake asking me to dance? Never thought I’d see the day,” I mean come on…she couldn’t not tease him. “Hell must have frozen over,” she added finally putting a hand in his. “Or is it Blake-Jackson now…or Jackson-Blake? So I know how to properly tease you,” falling into their rapport with ease. “For future reference you see.” How long had it been since she’d just joked with him like this…too long. Finally standing, she squeezed his hand, a small display of genuine gratitude for the offer. And it was about damn time she’d been asked to dance.
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