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Tara realized that her words were confusing and worrying as soon as she saw Leiana's face after she said them. But Tara didn't want the girl to worry about her so she added "I mean it can't happen for the moment... But hopefully some day...". Tara forced a smile to seem more convinced by her last words hoping it will be enough to dispel the unease that had settled.

However, Tara was quite sure she wasn't as persuasive as she would have wanted be. But she decided not to let it show too much because she didn't want to talk about her mother. She was already destroying a big part of her life so Tara won't let her destroy moments like this one too.

"My favourite colour..." Tara repeated thinking about her answer "I think we are lucky to live in a world made of an infinite amount of colours... Imagine how sad the world would be if it was all black and white... So I guess my answer is that I don't have a favourite colour, I like them all!" Tara explained with a smile satisfied of her answer.

Now it was Tara's turn to ask Leiana a question "Okay, my turn! So... How old are you exactly? I'm seven and I can see you are around my age, maybe a little younger?" Tara decided to keep it simple, she wanted to know the basic information about the girl before beginning to ask her about her problems and what brought her there.

Leiana LaCroix

"Well... If it can reassure you, I swear I'm not a threat." Tara told the girl smiling. She was just trying to clear the air as she had noticed how traumatized the girl seemed to be. Somebody had to help her to relax a little and to try to think about something else.

Tara totally understood that it was hard to act normally after some traumatizing events but it was human to want to do so. And if some people needed to talk about what happened to feel a bit better, some others didn't want to speak and prefered trying to act like everything was okay. Tara couldn't blame these people because she would probably do that too if something happened to her so it was understandable.

Actually, speaking about talking to someone else about events or problems, Tara was hiding a big part of her story by just telling the girl that she was in medical most of the time. But she had her reasons why she couldn't be fully honest about that. First, she couldn't explain to anyone what her mother was doing to her or she would be floated and Tara would never see her again. And secondly, the seven-years-old girl didn't want to make the girl sadder than she already was by telling her her story.

As the girl offered her a seat, Tara hesitated a little, it wasn't very usual for her to have a discussion and to spend time with someone around her age so it felt a bit weird. But she finally decided to sit next to her letting her fingers into the girl's hand as it seemed to help her and it didn't bother Tara. All the contrary, it was good to hold someone's hand. As Leiana said she would have to come back, Tara answered "Then I guess we will see each other again quite often. That's a good thing!" It was, even if she would have prefered to see Leiana again in a place other than medical.

Leiana LaCroix

Medical... There she was again... It was almost like a second home for Tara. She was used to the silence of this place and if this atmosphere could be kind of stressful or disturbing for some people, Tara had grown more and more at ease with it. At seven years old, she had been there so often that most of the nurses and doctors knew her and some of them had somehow replace the friends she would probably never have.

This time, Tara was in medical for some food poisoning. It wasn't the first time she was there for that reason so she knew the procedure, they wanted to keep her under observation for a day, maybe two. Then her mother would be able to bring her back home and to poison her again or to find some other way to make her sick or anything like that.But for the moment her mother wasn't there so Tara was free.

The nurse who had to check on her several times in the day had just left and she wouldn't be back for at least an hour. So as she didn't want to stay alone and as she felt good, Tara decided to go see if she found someone to talk to and spend some time with around.

Hanging around, she saw a girl who seemed to be around her age lying in a bed, no one by her side. Tara was so glad to find someone around her age, maybe they could be friends, so she approached of the girl. As she was coming closer, Tara understood how bad the girl seemed to be. She had no idea of what happened to the girl but it must have been terrible.

Once near the girl, not having any ideas of what she should say, Tara looked at her for a minute and noticing the tears beginning to form in her eyes, she simply took her hand and asked "Do you feel bad? Do you want me to call a nurse or a doctor?".

Leiana LaCroix

Maybe Tara shouldn't have said what she just said about people killing people but the words just got out of her mouth before she could stop them. But seeing how the other girl acted after that, Tara understood that it had touched her and she felt sorry to have let the words out, she didn't mean to make the girl feel uncomfortable. - She could not have put it any better - Tara thought when the girl spoke about never knowing who might become a killer but the other Arker probably didn't suspect that the girl beside her was a killer. Tara had stabbed her own mother and she couldn't sleep because of that. Her mother was litterally haunting her and she wasn't sure she could keep living like that any longer. It was a weight way too heavy that she couldn't carry on her shoulders anymore.

"Then I must look much better than I thought." Tara told the girl smiling at her. She perfectly understood what look the girl was talking about. This tired look not only tired because they hadn't sleep enough the last night but also tired of everything around them. Tara had that look for what seemed to be an eternity now. She had grown more and more tired over the years since she was a child. Her mother's terrible treatments, her father's suicide, her mother's death by her hand, if you added everything that had happened, everything she saw since the landing, you could easily understand why Tara had this look and was so tired.

Even if she wanted to be alone when she had left the camp, having the girl next to her now didn't bother Tara. All the contrary, she was glad she had met the girl otherwise who knows where she would be at the moment. But she had run into Shiloh, maybe it was a sign, maybe the girl could help her. That was why when Shiloh asked her why she needed air, even if Tara wasn't the kind of person who shared what they had on their heart, which was quite ironic as she usually incited people to talk to her as a former student in psychology, she decided to answer the girl "I can't sleep lately because I have loads of things in my mind and I hoped that walking outside and breathing some fresh air could maybe help me clearing my mind... But I guess I was wrong..." Tara sighed acknowledging her defeat against her thoughts and then added "Your turn to tell me why you needed air now.".

@shiloh

Tara was so tired... Tired of thinking about everything that had happened since they landed, tired of dreaming about what she did to her mother. She could remember every single detail of it and it drove her crazy. Seeing herself stabbing her mother with some sharp piece of metal everytime she closed her eyes was so much more than she could endure. And not sleeping wasn't a good solution. She needed to clear her mind if she didn't want to lose it.

That was why after wandering in Alpha Station, Tara let her feet lead her as she got lost in her thoughts. She didn't know what to do to think to something else so she just walked. She didn't know for how much time she was going to walk neither did she know where she was going but she kept walking. She wasn't sure of what she could expected of that walk alone, her body there but her mind so far away.

Apparently, her feet had decided to bring her in the forest. The calm and quiet forest around the camp. Nature, silence and loneliness, it should have been perfect for Tara to clear her mind, at least that's what she must have unconsciously assumed but now that she was there, she didn't feel any better or even any different. Breathing fresh air and walking without any purpose wasn't helping but she kept walking around.

Tara was still thinking, trying to find a way to let the thoughts go when suddenly, a voice brought her back to reality. But that's only when she saw the sunlight reflecting in the knife the girl who was in front of her was holding that Tara understood what was going on. "I - I'm sorry... I didn't mean to scare you." she apologized, she was so confused. She didn't know where she was, she didn't know how much she had been walking and she didn't know with who she was right now.

But coming back to herself, she tried to cover up her confusion. "Isn't it ironic that you're the one saying that?" Tara answered to the Arker when she told her she shouldn't be there on her own. Then, she decided to offer the other girl some help in an attempt to sympathize "Can I help you with something?".

@shiloh

As Jackson squeezed her hand again, Tara thought it was good to have someone here to support and listen to you but she felt bad because she couldn't tell him everything she had on her heart while he was really nice to her. When he told her it's been nine years, Tara understood he had lost his parent at her age or something like that. But it also gave her an idea of how much time it took to heal, even after nine years Jackson didn't seem totally heal. "I'm a little late but... I'm sorry for your loss...".

Tara didn't like the turn the conversation had taken, she didn't like how she had to be careful about what she said about that topic especially when she was vulnerable like that. The young girl couldn't speak about her mother and what she did to her, it was too dangerous, she would be alone if her mother got caught and was floated and by the way, maybe now that her father was dead the woman would stop to do terrible things to Tara. So the young girl couldn't trust anybody, even the nurse. When Jackson told her that he could set something up for her, she answered "No, don't worry about me... It's going to be okay...". She couldn't risk to talk to someone about the impact of her father's death, about how it left her alone, she would too easily speak about her mother. "Don't worry, money isn't the problem..." she said when Jackson said he could cover the price of seances with a therapist. She couldn't accept his proposal even if it was very nice of him and she was thankful about that. She just couldn't.

@severitysoftly

Tara was very interested in psychology and psychiatry, she wanted to be a psychologist for years now and she was studying hard to reach her goal. On the last psychology class, the teacher gave the students a whole work to do, they needed to prepare a presentation about the subject they drew lots. Tara's subject was Munchhausen syndrome by proxy. She didn't know much about it except it was some illness which involved psychology but also psychiatry so she decided to go see Killian Crane, the psychiatry teacher to learn more about it.

That was why after the psychiatry class, Tara waited for the other students to go out and then came to the teacher's desk. Seeing the man looking around the room to make sure she wanted to see him made the student feel a little uncomfortable. "Yes. Sorry to disturb you. But I'm a psychology student and my teacher gave me a work to do about... Munchhausen syndrome by proxy... And as I don't know much about it, I was wondering if you had some time to give me so I could understand it more easily and ask you some questions about it..." Tara said as the psychiatry teacher asked her what he could do for her. The young woman hoped the man will agree to explain her about this illness if he knew things about it.

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