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Post by Levi Kazuto on Jan 6, 2017 1:20:18 GMT
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He'd underestimated how badly she'd reacted to Jasper's reaction, and for a moment he felt guilt when he saw her irritated expression. Though his expression flickered between pity and false amusement, he was struggling to find anything playful to say. There weren't really any sarcastic retorts that fit, so instead he let his folded arms drop before raising his hands in teasing surrender. "Alright, alright it was rude," he said lightly as he walked with her. "I just think that you're too good for Jasper on his best day... When all this passes and people stop worshipping him you'll be glad you didn't stoop." Levi had trouble being nice without putting anyone else down, but it was the only way he really knew how to raise somebody up. It wasn't that effective, but that didn't mean he would change his ways.
"I didn't mean to offend you, Harp-- really." The sincerity behind his tone was real and couldn't possibly be faked, but he could understand why some people would ignore it. After all sincerity wasn't his strongest suit. "He doesn't know what he's missing out on... He's got an inflated ego. He'll regret turning you down... Just don't let him get away with it." Wouldn't that be great? Jasper comes around and suddenly decides Harper's good enough for him after all. Some chicks liked that kind of thing. It was idiotic.
"Are you okay?" His brow was quirked as he examined her expression; hoping that he hadn't upset her more than she'd already been upset. |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Jan 4, 2017 10:25:02 GMT
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Jasper was a hero. So brave. So strong. Fearless. He killed a grounder and everybody was abuzz about it. He even got a bigger tent for it... good for him... but Levi thought it was stupid. No surprise there, Levi thought everything was stupid... though this time it was the way he gloated. Levi had no sympathy for grounders and knew that one day they would all be killing them, or be killed by them, but the way Jasper prattled on about how in the moment he was... it was annoying. He believed Octavia’s side of the story far quicker than he believed in Jasper’s heroism... but what got him where it hurt was the way some girls were after him. Harper, a member of Bellamy’s militia, a girl who was truly brave enough to stand up and protect the group was after him. She was better than that... not that Levi liked her or anything.
She was pretty, funny and smart... she was too good for Jasper. Maybe if he hadn’t gloated so much Levi wouldn’t have such a low opinion of him. He wasn’t sure... but when he saw Harper go into Jasper’s tent he couldn’t help scoffing to himself with annoyance. He wasn’t jealous. He was annoyed. There was a difference...
But then she left... minutes after. Not even five had passed and she left the tent with a defeated look that made Levi’s jaw drop in disbelief. He rejected her. How in the hell did he think that he could do better? Jasper had a thing for Octavia, he knew that, everybody knew that... but after killing a grounder did he really think he had a shot? Levi slipped off the wooden perch where he sat and followed Harper until he was walking beside her. Part of him wanted to make sure she was alright but it didn’t come out well. “Didn’t go well I take it?” He asked in a playful tone. “Don’t blame yourself. You’re probably too much for him to handle.”
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 28, 2016 21:40:21 GMT
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For as long as Bellamy allowed it, Levi read his expression and his reaction to his words. Levi hated being vulnerable and putting himself out there. People were not reliable enough to trust, which was why Levi didn't wear his heart on his sleeve. He covered it with every ounce of armor he could scrounge up and locked it away in a vault for which even he didn't know the combination. Right now though, Bellamy had it out in the open and he didn't even know it. As every second passed Levi grew cold and anxious; ready to yank his heart back into the vault and pretend this never happened. He would pretend that he never saw the vulnerability in Bellamy's eyes, or felt his touch-- he would even deny that he felt any attraction to him at all if that's what it took. He'd done it before, but never for somebody he cared for this much.
His words made him take his first breath in what seemed like minutes, but as he leaned in to hide his emotions and speak by Levi's ear, he instinctively laced his fingers through his curls to hold him closer. "None of us have the right," he said with a small frown. "Not after... everything. That doesn't mean we can't..." He leaned in to rest his forehead in the crook of Bellamy's neck, breathing him in. It was strange being with someone when his defenses were down. "We can't control that... We can't control the future-- and you can't assume you're going to hurt me." He ran his fingers through his locks; stroking his hair slowly as his lips pressed against his covered shoulder. "All we have is right now... So stop worrying about what might happen, okay?" He pulled back to look at him and lightly trailed his fingers through his hair still. "I've survived this long. I don't think anything is going to make you lose me." |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 28, 2016 1:41:37 GMT
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As Bellamy responded to the kiss, Levi was all too eager to move closer. His tongue flicked against Bellamy's as he felt his fingers course through his hair and pull him in tighter. It had been a while since he'd felt the touch of another person. After Mount Weather, he lost interest in a lot of it. It never seemed right... The feeling of Bellamy's fingers brushing his hip drew a small shudder from him and though he didn't want to, he pulled away for a moment to look at him. His hand moved to Bellamy's and wrapped around his wrist to keep him from moving his shirt anymore. It wasn't because he didn't want it. He wanted it and had for a long time but even with every inch of him aching he couldn't guiltlessly dive into whatever this was becoming. It wasn't because he felt like a distraction, or like he was being used. Bellamy was too selfless to pull that crap. He needed it to be more.
"This... means something to me," he said after a moment of trying to think of the right words to use. He didn't want to sound like an overly emotional or sentimental tool who got attached to every person he kissed. He wasn't. He let out a small breath and let go of Bellamy's wrist hesitantly before reaching down to tug at the hem of Bellamy's shirt with furrowed brows. "I don't want this to be... some one night stand. Not with you." He valued their relationship too much, platonic or not. Making it something more would forever change that and if this was something he wanted for a night... well it would make things messy. "I'd say I want to take it slow but... I don't. I just don't want to change... how we see each other unless you really want this. Me, I mean." Levi licked his lower lip and bit it in thought before glancing back up at Bellamy, wondering how he'd respond. "I won't hold it against you if it's not what you want." |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 26, 2016 22:06:09 GMT
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The silence went uninterrupted as Levi watched Bellamy's expression. He read every emotion that he allowed to cross his features as he tried to find an answer. Levi didn't rush him, or move from his place. He let Bellamy think until he broke the silence... but even then Levi didn't know what to say. He could tell Bellamy that it wasn't his fault. Levi could remind him that he didn't send them down to this hell hole. He could even remind him that there was nothing he could have done-- and that even if he got them out without casualties they wouldn't survive on their own. They died quickly, when they would have died slowly over time. Horribly; but quickly. He didn't say any of this because he knew that he wouldn't be able to say anything to make him feel any better. He couldn't fix it. There was no fixing it. Though he took a breath to speak, there were no words that came out. Nothing felt appropriate. Instead he squeezed his hand lightly in return.
"You're going to get through this," he said after a moment. There was no swapping blame around and there was no arguing with him and telling him that he was in the right. Levi knew better. He knew he wouldn't believe a word he said, but the fact that time would pass was the one thing he could promise. The fact that it was horrible now was not something he could change-- but whether or not anyone wanted to believe it, eventually it got better. He was hesitant now though as he reached up to cup his face. It was odd... touching him and being so close. It was something that Levi was trying to get used to. He'd thought about it before, but it had never been appropriate. Meaningless intimacy was all Levi knew, so now when there was meaning behind these actions... he was at a loss. "You don't have to do it alone... You don't have to bear it in silence,"
Slowly, almost cautiously he pressed his lips against Bellamy's. It was just as gentle as the first, but closer. Levi's thumb ran lightly across his jaw as his tongue traced his lip. Every move was slow. Levi wasn't sure what he was doing-- but it felt right. Different than anything he was used to; but right. |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 26, 2016 19:50:28 GMT
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Levi was caught in the moment; the vulnerability of it. Had they not been so close, Levi would have scoffed at the phrase. He took it all on himself, without realizing the consequences. He couldn't just stop. He couldn't let it go and pretend like he couldn't see the guilt and shame swimming in Bellamy's deep brown eyes. Levi's own black eyes were caught on his before Bellamy pressed his lips against his. The moment made Levi freeze. The kiss was soft, and for a brief moment Levi kissed him back... The warmth of the intimate moment was overwhelming in its own way. Levi was not an affectionate person, or at least, he'd never had the chance to be. He wasn't frozen in place and shocked because it was Bellamy-- but because it happened at all.
It could have been anyone he cared about; man or woman-- that didn't matter. Most of Levi's more intimate interactions were fast; hot and desperate and always meant as a distraction. Though it was quick, Levi found himself overthinking it. Was Bellamy using intimacy as a distraction the same way Levi used people for it? Did it actually mean something? When he pulled away, Levi was left gaping like an idiot; a very confused idiot. Even if Levi used sex and intimacy as an escape from life, it still meant something. So what did this mean to Bellamy? Levi took a step towards the door as he tried to find a less desperate way to ask him... Asking him now seemed so pathetic, so he bit his lip and turned towards the door. His hand moved to the door knob for a moment before he closed it and stared at the door for a few seconds before locking it.
"What happened in Mount Weather, Bellamy?" he asked the question without making eye contact while he composed himself. He wasn't dropping it. The rush of confused emotions and chemicals made it hard to focus, but he wouldn't be swayed like that. "Jasper acts like it was cold blooded murder... but there had to be more to it." When he turned around, he tried to veil the inner conflict that Bellamy had created. Instead he walked back towards him and took his hand. His fingers unconsciously laced between his but his gaze was unfaltering. "What happened?" |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 26, 2016 5:01:48 GMT
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"Bellamy shut up with all that 'you're my people' crap alright? We aren't at the dropship anymore and you don't have to play that role." The fact that it wasn't a role was patronizing. It made it worse. It was like Bellamy couldn't simply exist without putting the responsibility of others on his back. Maybe he didn't have a point to live without it, but damn it was irritating. He rolled his eyes as Bellamy extended the same invitation out to Levi, but he didn't respond immediately with a snide comment. He bit it back with all his willpower, but when the urge passed he let out a long sigh and laughed under his breath. Always looking out for others, never looking out for himself. Levi had learned to look out for those who deserved it. Bellamy was one of those few people, along with the kids that came down who deserved it.
"I'm not looking for somebody to vent to. I'm fine. Nobody fucked me up in Mount Weather and I didn't have to kill anybody to get out alive," he stood up straighter now and walked towards him. Impulsively, he reached out to trace his tense forearm lightly with the side of his fingers. "I don't have anything weighing me down and making me throw shit across the room. The only concern I have right now is for you." The sincerity of the statement and the weight of it was so out of character for Levi that he had to murmur the words in a tone just above a whisper. There wasn't even a hint of attitude in his tone, but when he let his hand fall he looked back up at Bellamy with an irritated glint reignited in his eyes. "So stop trying to look out for others and let yourself vent for once... I know it's taken it's toll. It always has-- right from the start. You don't talk about it but it's eating away at you." |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 25, 2016 22:09:02 GMT
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When Bell stepped aside, Levi ignored him and moved to pick up some of the things he threw around. Organizing cleared his head anyway, so he didn't have any problem with it. He didn't understand the relief that Bellamy felt when he saw who was at the door, but if it helped... "Nah-- Eric's just going through some shit. We don't have to switch rooms." Levi shrugged as he looked over some of the books and what have you before he glanced back at Bellamy. The fact that even though he was suffering some kind of mental collapse yet he still felt it was his responsibility to care for them was... well, to be quite frank it was a piss off. "Can you stop worrying about us for five minutes? It's getting pretty irritating. We're safe, and you don't have to look out for us right now-- so stop it."
He let out a long sigh as he leaned against the table and looked up at him with narrowed eyes and a look of general distaste. Then again, bitterness was pretty normal for Levi, especially when he was concerned. Caring was such a pain in the neck. Normally he could care at a distance but when somebody needed help it was that much more frustrating. "You can't pent up all this frustration Bell. It'll end up affecting your judgment..." He crossed his arms after gesturing haphazardly at the mess he'd made. "This kind of thing is how it starts. Next you'll wind up having a meltdown and breaking when we need you most. It's okay to take some time off from being a hero." Levi shook his head to move hair away from his face and glanced down.
"If you have to talk to somebody...-- I mean somebody who's not gonna feed you bullshit," he was talking about everybody in medical. They all thought they were shrinks now. "I'm here."
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Apr 25, 2016 2:11:11 GMT
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Levi wondered if everybody had forgotten who saved them. It wasn't Clarke. He had nothing against Clarke, and he thought highly of her at some times but she wasn't the one who kept them alive, whether she thought she was or not. Truthfully, it seemed all of the surviving delinquents credited her with saving their lives, forgetting that Bellamy actually risked everything to get inside Mount Weather. Considering what he heard he had gone through, he couldn't understand why nobody gave him the credit he deserved. It seemed like Bellamy was treated as an important chest piece in Clarke's game-- being moved from place to place like a pawn. Sure, he was important on the board. Like a knight or a bishop... but like the rest of the pawns, he was just a piece in the game that got overlooked.
It wasn't like Levi to care, or even to be upset by those facts but for some reason Bellamy's hooks were in him. Deeply. He wasn't like Robin. He was able to protect himself. He wasn't fragile. Yet he was still the world's punching bag. So yes. Levi came to check on him, but as his knuckles came close to touching the metal door he heard Bellamy. Things were being thrown; tossed around and shoved. He knew the sound. Sometimes when things got too tense and difficult... well, he understood. Normally, he would turn around and head back to his room. Something glued him in place and he resented it. So instead of leaving, he knocked when the sounds stopped.
"I'm fine," he said as Bellamy opened the door. He knew the look. He wanted something else to focus on than his own head. He was looking for a distraction-- but Levi didn't have one. His eyes flashed beyond Bellamy and towards the mess he had made instead for a long moment. "I'd ask... but," he shrugged and looked back at him. "My bunk mate is drunk and making life that much harder. Figured I'd come check on you-- but you're clearly not doing to well. Need help cleaning that up?" There wasn't any judgement in his voice. It was cold and matter of fact. |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Mar 26, 2016 3:55:37 GMT
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Levi rolled his eyes a little as Eric collapsed onto his bed. He didn't smell of booze but it was probably bleeding out of his pores. By the look of him, he was clearly hungover as hell. At least he wasn't being a drunken nuisance. Levi didn't think he could handle that today of all days. "You sound pretty enthusiastic." He said with a small scoff. "What is the bar closed down?" The subtle jab was probably argumentative and really didn't need to be said but sometimes Levi had a tendency to poke at things he shouldn't be poking at. Whether he was challenging his betters or being a sarcastic little shit, he had a way with rubbing people the wrong way.
He didn't like anyone who had a reason to be disliked, which in this world meant he hated half the population and then some. He didn't like grounders, he didn't like drunks, he didn't like guards and he really didn't like assholes who acted like they ran the joint. He didn't even like Bellamy at first. Though, he warmed up to him after a while. When people genuinely cared for others it got to Levi, but Eric was an argumentative drunk in his eyes. "They should have put you with Jasper." He said with a small grunt as he organized his stuff. Jasper was notorious for his drunken rampages. Of course, the two of them were going through different stressors. Eric was tortured, Jasper lost a chick he was screwing. |
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Mar 18, 2016 4:53:31 GMT
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Levi unpacked his few belongings and set them on the shelf beside his bed. His brow was furrowed with focus while he organized his half of the apartment he was assigned. The young man didn’t know who would be rooming with him, but he assumed it was one of the other arkers. The apartment was too much like the cell he’d spent most of his life in, only now he had a roommate... It wasn’t something he was looking forward to, especially when someone for laundry dropped off a box labeled ‘Eric Powell’. For fucks sake, Levi thought with a deep frown.
He didn’t have anything against Eric. Kid had been through shit and Levi understood that... but he was a drunk and an annoyance to a lot of people. Thank god he wasn’t as bad as Jasper, so he had that going for him. That didn’t mean he was a pleasure to be around. Levi sighed and put the box on the other bed in the room before sitting on the mattress. It wasn’t uncomfortable which was probably more than he would have gotten back at camp or in prison, but still. The ark was restrictive. “Welcome to paradise,” Levi said lazily as Eric showed up. “Looks like we’re bunk buddies.”
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Mar 16, 2016 4:43:40 GMT
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Levi listened intently; silently as he watched Bellamy’s body language. He could always smell a rat from a mile away. When he would bribe guards for favors, it was how he could figure out who was trustworthy and who wasn’t—and there was so much devotion behind Bellamy’s little speech that he couldn’t see any holes. He was annoyingly genuine. It was something that Levi rarely experienced. It was odd—even if he was looking for complete honesty, he didn’t know how to accept it when he had it. Instead, he gave a little huff and rolled his shoulders while looking up at the cave wall. “Preach to the masses,” he said in an annoyed tone before looking down at his hands. “Guess that’s why they call you king.” He stood up now and walked towards the opening of the cave, standing against the other side of the stone he moved so he was at Bellamy’s level.
“It’s a great idea; but there are grounders. I have a feeling they don’t give a fuck how old we are. Pretty soon they are probably going to come down on our heads with an army.” Levi wasn’t exactly the optimist. Some would call him depressingly pessimistic, but he preferred to be seen as a realist. “At least the guards didn’t spear us if we got too close,” he said with a smirk as he looked over Bellamy. He was always so serious, which Levi could respect. He himself was stoic by nature, but it was an icy defense rather than a healthy state of being. “Do you have any idea what we’re going to do when that happens? The way I see it is, it’s all fun and games until they attack. I have a feeling they’re hiding more than a hundred of their people.” Levi was listening intently, but he could still hear the wind howling. He knew it was the fog.
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Feb 29, 2016 2:26:30 GMT
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He didn't answer that question, but he knew it was rhetorical. He didn't want to explain that he knew each guard down to their ID numbers because it was a little pathetic how long he'd spent in lock up dealing with those people... The uniform threw him off-- made it hard to trust the guy despite his charismatic approach. Levi made the decision to follow him but that didn't mean he trusted him all that much.
"Can't blame me for being a little suspicious about a guard uniform and a gun just happening along the dropship. You could have easily been sent by one of them-- even if you say that you're completely against them." He shrugged a little and leaned against the rocks, looking up at the low ceiling. He didn't like being the kind of punk who cried 'we're gonna die' at the top of his lungs but hell he didn't know what would happen.
Must have been weird having family down here... He couldn't imagine trying to keep everybody alive on top of a sister. "Fuck it-- why do you care about anybody but Octavia?" he challenged instead with narrowed eyes. His suspicions were easier to face than whatever the fuck was clouding outside this cave. At least his suspicions could be answered with logic and truth, rather than what ifs and I don't knows.
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Post by Levi Kazuto on Feb 16, 2016 23:02:04 GMT
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Levi watched Bellamy move the rock to block out the small entrance to the cave before sitting with his back against the rock. His eyes were narrowed in frustration as he looked over his knife. Fuck. What the hell had they gotten themselves into? With his brows furrowed, he tried to think it over. Radiation could potentially make pockets of poison gasses under the earth—sure. But this seemed more deliberate. He hated the grounders with a passion... He hadn’t even seen one for himself but what they did to Jasper was too damn much. Poor punk screamed for days.
“We’re too close,” he muttered with anger before picking up a stone and scratching the surface with the tip of the knife. “They didn’t... prepare anybody for survivors. This whole planet should be a wasteland.” He grew up imagining the world as a desert from one side to the other with nothing but eradiated air. He tossed the stone at the wall and ran his hands roughly through his hair before looking up at Bellamy. He seemed put together.
“Speaking of defending how did you get the gun?” The question was brought on by sudden curiosity. “And the guard outfit. You’re not a guard. Would have seen you before if you were.” He knew all the guards... he knew how to piss them off and how to get under their skin. It was almost a hobby. However, he knew nothing about their ‘leader’. “You’re sure as hell not a prisoner either, so what’s your deal? Why are you even here?” You could blame his aggressive curiosity on his desperate need for a separate topic. Something to take his mind off the fact that if there was a hole this chamber would fill with the toxic gasses.
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