Say something

[Kat Roux]

She didn't want to remember what happened afterwards, not when it meant accepting her parents were dead. Well, the more appropriate term would be missing. However, Kat knew how little that term meant recently. There was little reason to believe they had survived the crash down to the ground.. or involved themselves in the culling. She didn't have a way of knowing what happened to them during their time away from one another. Between throwing herself into her guard duties and the current battle, Kat wasn't coping so well with her parents' absence. The reminder of the Grounder war and the blood staining her hands wasn't a sight she could forget so easily. 

Shuffling slightly, the auburn haired girl pulled the bomber jacket closer to her as she headed down the hallway. Before long she found herself standing before Tara's door. The older brunette had offered her a few sessions to talk about the things bothering her. Initially, the opportunity of talking about her thoughts were the last thing on her mind but something had changed. Running away from her problems wasn't helping her situation. She needed to get it out of her system, especially with the way her dreams were beginning to turn into nightmares gradually. Kat didn't want to be plagued by that scene any longer. 

Releasing a small breath, Kat raised a closed fist to the door before lightly knocking on the door. In the few moments it took to open the door, she almost considered retreating within that small window of time. With Tara standing before her, the auburn haired girl straightened up her posture slightly as she willed herself to speak up. "You're not busy, right..?" She questioned softly, hazel hues flickering away from her for a moment. This wasn't the first time she had come by-- granted, those times she had chickened out on actually knocking. 

It wasn't supposed to be this difficult to speak up about her thoughts. The task was a relatively simple one compared to everything else she had done during her time on the ground. Raising her gaze off for the floor, Kat finally met Tara's gaze for once. "I wanted to talk. You mentioned.. that I could talk to you." She briefly explained, repeating the offer Tara had given her once. Might as well come clean with the whole truth. "I figured a talk might help clear my mind." 


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[Tara C. Donovan]

Rest… Tara needed to get some but it seemed to be impossible since they landed, since she killed her wounded mother after the landing, she couldn’t sleep without having nightmares so she was staying awake and trying to make herself useful by offering her help as a former psychology student to those who needed to talk to someone. But she couldn’t keep living like this or she would die of exhaustion. So, she was lying on her bed, listening to some music, just trying to relax when someone knocked on the door.

After stopping the music, she went to open the door and found Katarina standing in front of her. The younger girl didn’t seem very well, she seemed lost in her thoughts and quite uncomfortable and Tara was going to ask her if she was okay but Katarina spoke first. "No, I’m not. Especially when someone needs my help." she told the girl who asked her if she was busy, smiling at her and trying to make her feel more comfortable.

As Katarina explained her that she came because she needed to talk and Tara had offered her her help, the brunette said "You came to the right place. You’re not going to stay here. Please, come in." beckoning the auburn-haired girl to enter. She let the younger girl coming in and closed the door behind her. "Please take a seat, make yourself at home." Tara told Katarina, knowing the more comfortable the girl will be, the easier it will be for Tara to help her. "So, what did you want to talk about?" Tara asked not because she didn’t know why the girl came see her but because she wanted her to open to her, she needed to listen to what she had to say first, then she would be able to help her.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Nervous would be a fitting word to describe Kat's current state, particularly with recent events being brought to everyone's attentions. There was no better time than the present to finally speak about the nightmares plaguing her mind frequently. Perhaps nightmare wasn't the correct term to use. Memories were the better term to use. Constantly relieving the first few days on the ground wasn't keeping her conscious cleared. She needed to talk about them sooner or later. With her parents gone and everyone keeping quiet, Kat wasn't certain on who to go to --- but Tara had extended her hand out to her. It wouldn't hurt to talk her about this. "I.." Sighing softly, Kat's lips were pursued in a brief smile. "Thanks." 

With Tara beckoning her to come inside her room, the auburn haired girl could only nod her head and step inside. There was no point in delaying this talk any further. Once inside, she had taken a seat on the desk chair with her hands in her laps. Kat could hear the brunette's words slowly coercing the girl to open up. This was a much needed talk for her. She didn't want to be plagued by her nightmares any longer. Despite fiddling with her fingers, the auburn haired girl's gaze lingered on Tara for a moment.

"Ever since the war with the grounders, I... can't get those images out of my head. I can't stop seeing them in my dreams." Kat spoke up, her voice kept to a much softer tone. Her eyebrows furrowed slightly as she mulled over her next words. Speaking up on her dreams, and memories, was always a topic she tried to hold off on. However, she couldn't hide it any longer. "It's hard to stop seeing what happened-- what I did. I don't want to see them anymore. I thought it would stop now that we're here.. but it hasn't." How were you supposed to stop dreaming? It was an impossible feat. Releasing a shaky breath, her facial features contorted with worry. "I just want it to stop. I don't want to keep relieving that day over and over again." She already had a permanent reminder scarred on her body, right above her eyebrow. 

"I thought seeing my parents would stop that.. but they're not here. No one knows where they're are. Everything is just.." She rambled on for a moment, lips pursued in a frown. "I just want to stop seeing them in my dreams. That's all I want. I don't want to think about them anymore."


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[Tara C. Donovan]

As soon as the girl entered, Tara began to pay attention to every single gesture Katarina made, to every single word she said so she could get an idea of the emotional state in which the younger girl was, so she could already start thinking about how she was going to help her. The auburn-haired girl hesitations when she spoke, the way she was sit on the desk chair, the fact she was fiddling with her fingers, all these little details were signs of nervousness, of anxiety. And even if she didn’t know the younger girl very well yet, Tara could already say that something was torturing Katarina’s mind and she knew how it felt like, the brunette was haunted by her parents since the landing, even dead her mother was still torturing her and she hadn’t find a solution to stop it yet because trying to stay busy not to sleep wasn’t a solution. But maybe together they will find a way to stop this.

But even if she didn’t have the solution to this problem, Tara listened very carefully to Katarina, not wanting to interrupt her but just observing her quietly. When the girl seemed to have finished, Tara took few seconds to think about what she could tell the younger woman but finally the former psychology student broke the silence which had settled "Unfortunately, I don’t have the magic bullet for this otherwise I would have used it to be able to sleep… And I can’t promise you that talking about it will made your dreams go away… But we can try if you still want to of course." she said being honest with the other girl. Tara was aware that what she just told the auburn-haired girl could make her change her mind and want to leave but the only way this could work was if Tara managed to gain Katarina’s trust so she needed to be honest with her.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Despite what they had gone through in the past few days, they were still children in the end. The same ones who had gone through streneous events, forced to do things they wouldn't have done up in The Ark. Kat just wanted an opportunity to settle back and ease her guilty conscious. Regardless of those thoughts, there was no guarantee that her thoughts would diminish in the near future. She needed to try and see if talking about these thoughts would put an end to her nightmares. Even if it would take a couple of days or months, Kat wanted to kick start the process already. Shifting slightly in her seat as she finished speaking, the auburn haired girl raised her gaze to peer at Tara for a moment. Given her shifty behavior, her nervousness was blatantly obvious at this point. With the silence finally being broken, Kat turned her attention over to Tara as she quietly listened to her answer. While there was no guarantee her nightmares would be put to an end, she needed to try at the very least. Maybe she would be fortunate enough to be spared from these nightmares soon if she spoke up about her dreams and thoughts more often. Coming here hadn't been a half hearted attempt. After all, she had finally knocked on the door and stepped inside Tara's room for once. "I.. know, but I want to try it and see where I can go from there." Kat confessed, offering a small, tired smile. 

Whether it took various hours or several months, Kat was going to be committed to this discussion. She wanted to give it a shot for once. Maybe a change could be made somewhere. Releasing a small breath, the auburn haired girl forced herself to speak up once more. "I'm tired of handling these thoughts alone. It's not helpful to keep it bottled up, anyways." Kat rambled on for a moment, quickly correcting herself seconds later. "If you think it would help, I want to come talk to you again. I.. think it would be a good thing, especially with everything going on." She admitted, after much thought. The grounder war and her parents were topics that needed to be approached sooner or later. If Tara was willing to hear her out, then.. she would be more than cooperative with these self appointed sessions. Raising her hand briefly, she brushed aside a few stray strands of auburn hair behind her ear. "It's not troublesome if I decide to drop by again, right?" Kat questioned, mulling over the pesky thought. The last thing she wanted to do was trouble her, especially if she was willing to listen to her ramble on and on about her thoughts. 

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[Tara C. Donovan]

Tara knew that she wouldn't be able to help Katarina if the later one didn't want her help, that was why she wanted to hear her say that she wanted to try. So when the girl said it, Tara was glad that she wanted her help, "Okay, then I'll do my best to help you." she told the younger girl. And she will do everything she could to help her because even if Tara hadn't wanted to admit it at first, the auburn-haired girl touched her heart, when she looked at her, the former psychology student could see a part of herself. And that made her feel that maybe by helping Katarina, she could help herself so she was determined to do her best for the girl. As the auburn-haired girl offered her a smile, Tara returned it.

As Katarina spoke, Tara once again quietly listened to her, happy to see that the girl was more than ready to cooperate. "I totally understand what you feel... And you're right, keeping everything for yourself isn't helpful... So, yeah, I think sharing your thoughts with someone may help you... And if you want me to be this person, I'll be there for you." she told the auburn-haired girl. The fact that the younger girl wanted to talk about what happened to her since she was on the ground was totally understandable, Tara even found it brave, after all, the girl was just doing what she didn't have the courage to.

As the girl brushed aside her hair behind her ear and asked if it was troublesome if she decided to drop by again, Tara answered "You can come here whenever you want, at any hours of the day or of the night." She smiled at Katarina showing her that her words were true, as Tara didn't sleep much, she didn't mind if the auburn-haired girl came in the middle of the night. "Well, maybe we could start now... was there something you wanted to talk about first?" Tara asked.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Help was what Kat needed-- and it was something she refused to chicken out from. Besides, rejecting Tara's help wasn't something that had crossed her mind. Constantly being reminded of the past and trying to deal with it on her own.. wasn’t helping in the slightest. She already accepted the fact she needed help dealing with her issues awhile back. What better way than this? While she arrived with that mindset, it didn’t imply she wasn’t the least bit nervous about confessing her thoughts and feelings. It should have been an easy task but the words refused to escape her parted lips. At Tara’s words, the auburn haired girl could only offer a small smile at the thought. “Thanks.” She answered softly, already beginning to relax more so with the conversation.

“Mm.. I just didn’t know who to go to about this. I can’t say I spent much time with anyone else long enough to speak about this freely.” Kat admitted, mulling over her choice for a moment. Nina was her closest friend, yes, but she didn’t want to trouble her with these thoughts. Not when a majority of them wracked her with the heavy weight of guilt. Besides, there was something about the older girl before her that made it so simple to confess what was on her mind. Nonetheless, if she was able to talk to Tara about this then.. by all means she would. Anything helped if it took away some of the weight on her shoulders.

Tara’s words were a relief to hear, especially with everything that had gone on in their lives on the ground. No one had been spared from this stressful time. Despite the adults being here, things were entirely settled with any of the delinquents. Many of them were still missing their parents, either by the culling or by the descent of the Ark station. Either way there was still many things to take in and adjust to. “Thanks again, I’ll keep that in mind.” Tara’s offer would be taken seriously by the auburn haired girl. Before the thought of leaving could be considered, Kat quickly found herself distracted by her’s question. “Oh.. uh sure.” She answered, nodding her head in agreement. Was there something she wanted to talk about? The first thing that came to mind was the war with the grounders. “Yes.. there is something that I wanted to talk about. That fight with the grounders.. I uhm.. did something. I had to it was.. us or them.” Kat’s words were rushed, almost threatening to become a small ramble of inaudible words. “I had to kill someone else. I.. I can’t stop remembering what happened in that moment.” She swallowed dryly, focusing her gaze on the floor.

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[Tara C. Donovan]

As Katarina thanked her and offered her a smile, Tara could feel that the girl was starting to relax and she was glad to see that the younger girl began to feel more comfortable than earlier. "Don't thank me, I'm just doing what I'm good at to help the others... It's normal." she told the auburn-haired girl winking at her. Listening to what people needed to talk about and trying to help them was what Tara had wanted to do for years, years that she spent studying to reach this goal so she was more than happy to be able to apply what she had learnt.

"You can say everything you want freely here. What will be said in this room will stay in this room." Tara told Katarina to reassure her and to let her know she could talk about every topic she wanted, as long as it could help her Tara was ready to listen. But what the auburn-haired girl said surprised the brunette a little, apparently either Katarina didn't have much friends or she prefered come to her to say what was on her mind. Tara hoped it was the second option because she knew how hard it was to live alone without family and friends. Plus, if it was that, she was glad the younger girl chose her and not someone else.

Seeing the girl relaxing more and more at her words, Tara felt like they couldn't just stop there and agree on when will be the next time Katarina will come, that was why she had asked the girl if she wanted to talk. Apparently the latter one didn't expect this question but she agreed to confess right now so Tara let her speak. The former psychology student quietly listened to the younger girl, giving her all her attention. She was very hesitant, which made Tara understand that what she needed to say was something that had traumatised her or at least really shocked her. As the girl confessed having killed someone and always remembering it, Tara answered "I know it's hard and it's going to hurt but I need you to tell me more about this... Do you remember this in nightmares or is it like flashbacks during the day? Is it memories or is there some changes compared to what really happened?" she just wanted to have more details about what was haunting Katarina and how it did so it would be easier for her to help.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Something told me to run words: tag: Tara C. Donovan notes: It might have been a normal gesture, but with everything that occurred recently.. it was difficult to have some normal in their lives again. There was a constant sense of danger and tension with everyone, which was understandable. They lived with the possibility of dying at any moment, something that seemed to briefly come to a halt. For now at least. With everything that had gone on, she was finally ready to come to terms with a majority of her troubles-- every last detail of those troubles. From the moment the war with the Grounders began to the arrival of the others from the Ark. Kat needed to get this out of her system before her guilt threatened to engulf her. Besides, Tara had offered her the opportunity to talk. While it wasn't outright spoken by the auburn haired girl, the seventeen year old couldn't find herself willing to speak about her troubles to any of the other delinquents. It was true they were probably the only ones who shared the same experiences with her, but.. everyone seemed to prefer handling these troubles silently. Something she couldn't do any longer alone. "Yes, but not everyone is up to talking about what's happened back at camp. Not that I blame them.. it isn't something that's easy to be open about." Kat explained, turning her gaze elsewhere for a moment-- peering down at her hands briefly. "It's just the that moment isn't one that's easy to bring up with the others. It's a lot easier to be open with you about this." She added. Honestly, she wasn't sure if it was because Tara hadn't been there when it all occurred or there was something else-- something she couldn't see just yet. Maybe she'll get her answer sooner or later. With Tara's response, her gaze lingered on her for a moment, debating something before she relented for a simple nod of her head instead. While she was being open about her troubles, privacy was always a blessing to have.  Despite relaxing moments ago, Kat's eyebrows were furrowing as she could recall with ease the memory of what happened at the dropship just a few days ago. It was hard to shake off the memory of that day, regardless of what transpired recently. As she finished, Kat's attention flickered over to Tara as she heard the question, her lips parting for a moment to speak. Were there changes in her memories of what really happened? Fiddling with her fingers as her gaze was focused on the ground, Kat tried to concentrate on the details that she could remember. "It varies.. sometimes I can see it happening in front of me, other days it's only a dream. I don't think the memory ever changes. There's.. always someone dying by my hand in the end." She confessed, swallowing dryly at the thought. The vivid imagine of a crimson hue staining her hands wasn't a sight she could forget so easily. While the memory was the same, it didn't specify her dreams. They were constantly changing, making her out to be more of a.. killer than she thought she was. "The dreams are where everything changes... it's not always just a few.. sometimes there's more." She trailed off momentarily, reluctance lingering on her facial features for only a moment. "They're always changing. Sometimes I'm alone in the middle of all of that, having to relieve that moment again otherwise.. I'm dead in that dream." Kat finished, struggling with the latter of her words briefly. "I don't want to hurt anyone-- I don't.. but in those dreams I can't stop myself from reacting." She exhaled softly, tempted to cut herself right there. However, she couldn't stop herself from speaking. "I just want the dreams to stop. I don't want to see that scene play out, not again." Kat confessed weakly. After countless nights spent tossing and turning, she preferred to have a night where she could actually get a decent nights' sleep instead of being kept awake by the dreams of a memory that can't be changed.

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[Tara C. Donovan]

Down there on the ground, the only thing Tara could do to make herself useful was helping those who wanted her help because even if there were loads of people who needed it, not everyone wanted some help and if they didn't want it and believe in it then there was nothing the brunette could do for them. That was why when Tara had heard Katarina saying she wanted help earlier, she was so happy not only because it will keep her quite busy but especially because there was something about the younger girl that made her want to do this, she wanted to do everything she could to make Katarina feel better.

"Yes, it's not the kind of topic that you can easily insert in a conversation... and it's hard to talk about it so I need to say that I think it's very brave to have decided to do this..." Tara said as the auburn-haired girl spoke about how hard it was to be open. But when the younger girl told her that it was easier to be open with Tara, the older girl just couldn't help but have a smile drawing on her lips and she could feel her cheeks blushing a little. She didn't know why the girl made her feel like that... Well... she may have an idea, the younger girl was cute and she would probably understand what Tara felt but she needed to focus and stay professional right now.

The way Katarina reacted to her question confirmed what Tara said, it was hard for the younger girl but she was able to speak about it so Tara kept looking at the girl to see her reactions and listened carefully to her. Seeing the girl that nervous and hesitant made Tara feel kind of guilty to ask her that question but she had to if she really wanted to help. The auburn-haired girl was so touching, the brunette could feel what she felt and it was so hurting, so hard. Tara moved closer to the girl, sitting right in front of her "Hey, it's gonna be okay. We've all done terrible things since we're down here... and it can change some things in our mind but it doesn't change our heart..." she said reaching the girl's hands. "You just had no choice... You're a good person Katarina... not a killer..." Tara added looking the girl in the eyes.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Something told me to run words:  tag: Tara C. Donovan notes:  Personally, Kat wasn't certain if her actions were considered brave or not. The thought wasn't one she lingered on, especially when she heard Tara's remark. "Mm.. you're right about that. It's not easy bringing it up, despite how many have similar experiences here." She confessed, mulling over her thoughts briefly. She could recall with ease how many times the words were on her lips yet she couldn't manage to confess a single word. There was always something stopping her from speaking up. "I don't know if it's because I want to move past this or something else, but I just want to get this off my shoulders for once."  Kat spoke before mentioning how Tara made it easy to confide in her. While there was no denying that the brunette was attractive.. there was something else that made her feel relaxed in her presence. Instead of focusing on that thought, the auburn haired girl quietly urged herself to speak up more. However, it was gradually growing more difficult the moment she mentioned how her dreams began to change. The nervous fidgeting she held seemed to grow stronger as her fingers idly toyed with the hem of her sleeve. How much should she tell her? Was it better to stop here?   With Tara moving closer and reaching for her hands, Kat found herself paying close attention to the brunette's words instead of glancing elsewhere. Instead, the auburn haired girl found herself struggling with words for a moment. For a moment, it almost felt as if she had forgotten to breathe when she felt tears threatening to spill. ".. Thanks, I.. needed to hear that."  Kat spoke softly, being mindful to keep her own feelings under control. While she was being honest, she didn't want to burst into tears either during their first talk together. "It's just.. difficult to accept that with everything that happened." Her hands were briefly raised to wipe aside any stray tears that appeared hastily.  "I just.. don't know if it's the memory or the dreams getting to me lately." Kat admitted, shoulders slumping downwards at the thought. With everything going on in Arkadia, the auburn haired girl had far too much time on her hands. Enough time to be plagued by those thoughts once again. All she wanted was to have a clear mind, but it wouldn't happen any time soon. Not until she accepted what happened and found a way to move past it. Something that was quickly proving to be difficult. "Maybe it's both getting to me lately. It's hard thinking I'm the same as before when all of this is happening.." Kat trailed off, lips pursued in a small frown at the thought.

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[Tara C. Donovan]

Tara wasn't sure that Katarina believed the fact she was brave but for the older girl she really was, Tara had never been able to talk to someone about what she did so she admired the younger girl's decision. "Yeah, I know that feeling... having the words on your lips and wanting to let them out but being stopped by something without really knowing why..." the former psychology student said, at least it was how she felt and she hoped that Katarina felt the same, it would make help easier. "I think you're at a stage where your shoulders can't handle all of this anymore... But it's a great thing, that means that you're ready to free your mind." Tara truely believe that the need to talk didn't show a weakness, it was a strength, a chance to make the thoughts and nightmares which were hunting their mind run away.

Tara saw that the fact she got closer and had reached for the girl's hands had made the auburn-haired girl focus on her and she was glad of that because her words were true and important. And as the brunette noticed the younger girl's tears, she let her finish speaking before telling her softly "Hey, it's gonna be okay... You really are a good person with a pure heart. Unfortunately you had to go through hard things, to make difficult choices and I know it's hard to think that but it doesn't change who you are.". If her words could make the girl feel better Tara won't stop talking, she would say every single nice thing that came to her mind when she saw the girl if it could help.

Tara listened carefully to what Katarina was saying about the memory and dreams trying to understand what was in her mind at the moment. "It can be both of them, you're right and we will try to stop that." Tara said before adding "But for now I think we both deserve to rest a little... When was the last time you had a decent sleep?". The auburn-haired girl seemed quite tired and the older girl felt like she had pushed her enough for this night. But Tara would like the girl to stay there to make sure she would get some sleep and to be here in case the younger girl had a nightmare so she could wake her up and just be here for her.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Something told me to run words:  tag: Tara C. Donovan notes: ack. sorry about the delay! Kat wasn't sure what to believe, not when everything around them were leading her thoughts to stray elsewhere. Recent events had left her recoiling out of stress or her growing desire to remain silent about her nightmares and thoughts. Unfortunately, that couldn't be a constant in her life any longer. She needed an outlet for her thoughts, otherwise she was going to grow weary the more time passed. "You described the feeling perfectly." Kat agreed, offering a brief smile in return. Tara described the feeling all too well. Freeing her mind sounded right, especially with all the thoughts that wanted to be free. "Yes, it's just.. difficult getting all of these.. thoughts out in the open for once." It was difficult to stop the onslaught of tears threatening to spill as Kat tried to focus on the comforting words Tara spoke. Despite the growing desire to remain strong, she couldn't prevent her tears from falling. Being the ground was great, but the burden of the last few days was weighing heavily on her mind. To be precise, the recent battle with the Grounders had been the main reason behind this feeling. That was the first time she had ever killed someone- an experience she didn't want to relieve ever again. However, Kat was all too aware that now was the time to be ready to fight, especially with the other Arkers on the ground now. "-- Are you sure..?" She questioned, trying to keep her voice steady despite the occasional shake in her body.  For a second, the auburn haired girl wasn't certain on what her answer was. Between the nightmares and the packed schedule, she was wide aware for a majority of the days- which explained the weariness and exhaustion clinging to her. Swallowing her pride, Kat forced herself to speak up. After all, she came here to get this off of her shoulders, not keep it there any longer. "It's been awhile since I've had more than a few hours of sleep. Well, enough to describe as decent at least." Kat admitted truthfully, toying with the hem of her sleeves.

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[Tara C. Donovan]

Tara knew this feeling well to perfectly not to describe it very well. She felt this everyday, how many times had she wanted to tell someone what she felt? But still every time something had stopped her from doing it. She wished she could be the person who will help Katarina not to feel like this anymore as she would have love to have someone like that around her. "Well... What can I say... It's easy for me to describe what I or other people feels... It's kinda part of my job..." she told her. It was all she had found not to have to explain the girl what she felt and why she felt that even if she trusted the girl. "Yeah... It's... It has always been hard... But as always we do what we need to do...". She was aware it was difficult, it was even hard for her too.

It was hard for Tara to see what what she did was doing to the auburn-haired girl. She didn't want to make her cry, it was heartbreaking but she had to do so in order to help Katarina. The younger girl was very strong and Tara had no doubt about that but apparently she had touched a sensitive point. A very very sensitive point that even all the comforting words she could say won't alleviate the pain of. "Of course, I'm sure. Your heart is pure, I can feel it." Tara answered, she truly believed what she just said, Katarina was obviously a wonderful person, at least she was for her.

Tara could saw that the auburn-haired girl was hesitating so she could already tell that the answer to her question was that Katarina hadn't sleep well for a long time which was understandable with all the nightmares and thoughts she had. It was the same thing for the brunette. After Katarina's words, Tara answered "Then, you should get some sleep right now.". And as she wanted to make sure the younger girl got some sleep, she proposed "If you want, you can even sleep here so I'll be here for you if you have a nightmare.". She won't sleep this night anyway so if she could do something for the younger girl and have a reason not to sleep, then she will do it without any hesitations.

Kat Roux

[Kat Roux]

Something told me to run words: tag: Tara C. Donovan notes: aaaaa- I'm so, so sorry about the sudden absence. That feeling haunted Kat constantly, leaving her in a state of distress. With everything that happened recently, all she wanted was some peace when it came to her thoughts. However, that safe haven wouldn't be granted to her. Instead, she'd be plagued by terrible thoughts and memories of the last couple of days. It was a miracle that she was finally able to speak up a bit, and finally start discussing what her thoughts were. With the way things were, she could use an opportunity to finally breathe and sleep properly for once."Mm.. it must be a helpful job." Kat finally pipped up, offering a brief smile moments later. There was no reason to disagree with Tara's statement, she was telling the truth. "We have to do what we can, don't we?"  Despite the onslaught of tears and slight shakiness in her movements, Kat couldn't prevent anymore tears from falling. It was the constant thoughts of what they had to do-- what she had to do, that left her racked with guilt and panic. The auburn haired girl didn't want to linger on the thoughts of what she did. However, everything seemed to remind her of what had gone on. The only haven she had was during the moments she was awake and conscious, where she wasn't relying on sleep to distract herself. Something that no longer helped her. "I..." Kat's voice was slightly muffled as she raised her hand, trying hard from crying further. Maybe Tara did have a point.. maybe she wasn't as bad as she thought she was. Slowly taking in a couple of breaths, Kat's gaze flickered up briefly to glance over at the brunette for a moment. While the brief switch in conversation was nice, the auburn haired girl found herself reeling back for a second. Sleep was hard to come by, and yet she found herself craving it more so right now. Releasing a small breath, Kat quickly found herself nodding her head in agreement to Tara's proposal. Getting some sleep right now could be the next best thing for her. ".. I think I might take you up on that offer, as long as it's alright." Kat pipped up, keeping a more softer tone when she spoke.

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