Our Humanity

[Luna]

Kom woda ‘so gyon op, gon woda ‘so kom daun

from water we are born, to water we return

L

una was scared. She knew such an emotion wasn't very becoming of a potential future Heda. But . . . it was the human part of her. The part of her that was not yet conditioned to be an emotionless warrior. To focus on combat and politics, rather than the emotions and humanity. Perhaps both would be eventually stripped of them completely.

But it had not yet happened for Luna. She was unsure if it ever would. It was als why she knew that Titus did not favor her. Always telling her of such weaknesses, and that if she became Heda, it would not serve her well. She tried to take such lessons to heart, but it was growing increasingly difficult. Tonight, she just wanted company. Comnpany of someone that she felt close to. The irony of it . . . because eventually, they would be in a fight to the death. Luna's brother was among this group and that thought alone, terrified her. But despite her array of emotions, she remained composed. She had to.

Knocking on Lexa's door, she took a deep breath, unsure of what she would ask for at this late hour of night, clad in her long night own, her perpetually untamed hair, when they needed to be resting. Perhaps she would just ask for company; for a friend. She felt close to this particular fellow Nightblood. The closest out of them all apart from her own blood sibling. When the door opened she looked at Lexa, offering a small, soft smile. "I'm sorry if I woke you," she immediately apologized. "I just, couldn't sleep," she conceded, finding that the best reason to give rather than the deeper seated ones.

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crafted by Molly Josephine ☁

[Derrick]

Luna

Sleep was eluding her. No matter how much she tried, she just could not fall asleep. It was rather aggravating since she had been tired at dinner and now? Now when she actually needed it it was gone. Wide awake. Thoughts of the day and of training constantly going over in her head. Why now? Lexa had shoved her face in her pillow, trying hard not to snarl. Sleep, precious sleep, she wanted it but it just wasn't going to happen.

A knock at her door alerted her to someone else that couldn't sleep as as she rolled over, her eyes staring at the door and now in the darkness of the pillow. The knocker emerged and she saw who it was, the light framing the Natblida who she looked up to the most out of all the Natblida's here. And despite her irritation at her being unable to sleep, she still managed to smile.

"It's okay, you didn't wake me. Sleep is being rather elusive." Lexa said, sitting up and moving over slightly so that Luna could sit down on the bed if she wanted. Much more comfortable than the floor. "Everything okay?" It wasn't often she had visitors at night and Luna coming in here wasn't unwelcome - she was glad for the company, especially her Natblida sister. That meant she didn't have to be alone with her thoughts and didn't have to try and figure out how the hell she was going to sleep.

Patting the blankets down was a sign for Luna to come sit with her. "You don't have to talk if you just want to sit. But I'm here for you."

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[Luna]

Kom woda ‘so gyon op, gon woda ‘so kom daun

from water we are born, to water we return

L

una smiled, feeling a wave of relief wash over her as Lexa assured her that she did not in fact wake her. That sleep had been difficult for her too. "I know the feeling," Luna offered in return. Sleep was increasingly difficult the more time they were hear. Sometimes, nightmares haunting her that their Heda was dead and the conclave would take place. There was an irony that Luna could not ignore. That she people she was closest to, were ones that she may have to kill; or at least engage in a battle to the death with.

It was what often kept her up at night, and while she should be distancing herself from strengthening such bonds with the others . . . it was too late for that. She was already close to them. The impact of whatever would happen already too great. Pushing the thoughts from the surface of her mind, she entered Lexa's room, taking her up on her silent request as she joined her, seating on the bed. Becoming a little more comfortable as she folded her legs up under her, her body turned toward her fellow Natblida.

"I was just thinking about . . . our future." She hoped that was descriptive enough, that it brought to awareness what plagued her nights. She smiled once more when Lexa offered her support; emotional support. It was what Luna felt was helping her get through this entire thing. All the tireless training, the departure from her family with the exception of her brother. "And I'm here for you too," she told her softly, the smile on her lips to match. "Speaking of which, what is keeping you awake?" She inquired, wondering if it was the same reason, or perhaps no reason at all.

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crafted by Molly Josephine ☁

[Derrick]

Luna

The future wasn't something she liked to think about. On one hand becoming Heda would be no greater honor but that meant her fellow Nightbloods would be dead. Those who she grew up with, trained with, spent time around, all gone. When Luna sat upon the bed, Lexa moved a little closer to her, closing the small gap between them. There wasn't often a lot of time for contact and that alone was hard. Sometimes all she wanted was a hug, or a simple touch of the hand and often that couldn't happen.

Their future was sure to keep anyone up at night, even Lexa who was adamant in doing her duty as a nightblood. She was a good litte natblida but even so, she was still allowed to care and feel, it just wasn't shown as much. She took Titus's teachings more to heart mainly in hopes that he knew something that would help quell the inner emotional turmoil. He was their teacher and she trusted him to know it. "That's enough to keep anyone awake." Lexa commented with a slight nod of her head, her heart seemingly twisting it an unknown grip.

Aside from the other nightbloods, she didn't really have anyone. An only child, her parents out of her life, she had come to Polis alone. Lexa dipped her head, a small smile on her features, one of relief and full of her grateful feelings. "Thank you. I really appreciate that." Luna asked the question that even Lexa didn't have the answer too and as she stared ahead, her mind whirling with thoughts buzzing like flies, it was hard to pinpoint an accurate theory. "I'm not sure. I was tired earlier but when I tried sleeping, my brain just wouldn't shut down."

Lexa paused to take a breath. "Is there anything I can do to help distract your mind?" Her fingers reached out for Luna's hand to draw a half circular pattern, her own way of asking for a hug because frankly, that was what she needed right now. Well, one of the things she needed right now.