Use Me, Don't Abuse Me

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Jasper was tempted to get defensive at Bellamy's words. Or just leave altogether. He didn't think Bellamy was getting it, and Jasper wasn't about to explain. He wanted Bellamy to enjoy it too, not just do Jasper a sexual favor. He wasn't happy with Bellamy. Bellamy wasn't his favorite person right now, but he didn't want to feel like he was using Bellamy. Even if he was, sort of. Which was why he'd planned to leave the question of a second round up to Bellamy.

Just as Jasper was deciding to leave, Bellamy finished with, "I know which one I prefer." Jasper saw the disapproving look at the bottle, and started to screw the cap on. Bellamy did want him to stay. That was enough for now. Jasper shook the bottle a little. "It's empty anyway," he said, walking over to drop it back on top of his pants.

He came back to the bed, running his fingers through his hair in a way he knew would leave it a mess, and sat on the edge. Leaning in, he kissed Bellamy again, sliding his hand over Bellamy's jaw and pulling him in to deepen it. He wasn't actually sure what he wanted this time, but they could figure it out. "When I said don't talk, I just didn't want you to question it," Jasper breathed against Bellamy's lips. "You did anyway, so clearly I'm not stopping you." He'd enjoyed Bellamy telling him how good he'd felt before. And he knew Bellamy knew what subjects to avoid. He kissed Bellamy again, with a little more hunger this time.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy continued to watch Jasper as he dropped the bottle and made his way back to the bed, sitting on the edge and pulling him in for the kiss. Bellamy responded to it, parting his lips to further deepen it, the smell of alcohol fresh on Jasper's lips. It was something that was growing increasingly common with Jasper; a constant state of inebriation. But as Jasper said, he didn't want Bellamy to question anything. So he wouldn't. Not right now. Maybe not ever. He knew that right now, Jasper didn't need to be told anything that would set him off. He was suffering, and Bellamy wanted to ease that in whatever way he could.

His hand moved to the back of Jasper's head, pulling him down as Bellamy resumed his position with his bed against the back and Jasper now on top of him. "Well we don't need to talk about that, or anything," he suggested teasingly, speaking against Jasper's lips, sucking his bottom lip for a moment. His hands moved along the younger male's back, squeezing his ass for a moment before roaming back up. With their centers pressed together, Bellamy already felt himself hardening again. His hand fell to Jasper's cock, to determine how aroused he was.

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Jasper let Bellamy pull him down, rolling his body on top of Bellamy's, which sent a thrill through Jasper's body that instantly solved the issue of not knowing what he wanted right now. The renewed warmth in his body as the alcohol started to kick in, added to the tone of Bellamy's voice, allowed Jasper to completely relax where he was, sucking in little gasps of breath at the way Bellamy touched him.

He could feel his cock starting to swell, as he lowered his head, kissing down Bellamy's neck to suck at his Adam's apple. He groaned when Bellamy's fingers circled around his cock, causing the already growing arousal to pulse through him again, hardening him to his full size. "Can I fuck you?" he panted, his tone needy but also curious, one hand in Bellamy's hair while the other slide down his side.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy sunk his head further against the pillow, feeling Jasper suck on the front of his neck. He couldn't help but swallow, making the sensation of his mouth feel even better against his Adam's apple. The sound that escaped him when Bellamy took hold of his cock, assured him that he was ready . . . feeling it swell in his hand, and wanting to tend to it. It was Jasper's question that caused Bellamy to pause, though keeping his hand firmly in place. He looked up at Jasper, the thought highly appealing to the older male. Once again, the question of whether he had done this before entered his mind . . . but the possibility of it being a trigger discouraged Bellamy from vocalizing it.

Any conversations of past intimacy, threatened to bring up the subject of Maya, and Bellamy was trying to help distract Jasper from it. Without verbalizing an answer, Bellamy raised his hand, spitting in the palm of it and then lowering it back down to Jasper's cock where he started to coat him in his saliva, finding it even more titillating that he was using his own saliva to coat Jasper so that he could slide inside of him. Besides, he was enjoying running his hand over his length, being sure to moisten every part he could . . . not to make it easier for penetration, but because he just felt good to touch. Once that was done, Bellamy sat up a little, his lips hungrily going to Jasper's in a deep kiss, allowing Jasper to move him however he wished.

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Jasper's heart sped a little when Bellamy paused and looked up at his after his question, worried Bellamy would turn him down, or worse, make a joke about it. But then Bellamy spit in his hand and started to slick him, and Jasper let out a little noise of pleasure, his eyes still on Bellamy's. God, Bellamy still trusted him. Even with his body.

When Bellamy was done with him, Jasper hesitated a moment, wondering if he should move Bellamy to his hands and knees, then decided not to and slid his hands down to push Bellamy's legs apart, settling between them. His heart felt like it might beat out of his chest. He'd never done this before either, and he hoped he wasn't going to be terrible at it. But humans were animals, right? There must be something instinctive about this, right? And it wasn't as though Jasper never fantasized about it before.

Reaching down to grip himself, he found Bellamy's entrance with his finger first, and guided the head of his cock to it. And then he sank inside slowly, the pleasure of Bellamy's tight heat overwhelming him immediately. He wanted to watch Bellamy's face, but the feeling was too good. "Oh, God," he moaned, dropping his head to Bellamy's shoulder and bitting it gently as he continued to press inside.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy watched Jasper as he seemed to silently deliberate how to do this, how he wanted to do this. He was starting to get the feeling that this was something else Jasper had not explored with anyone. While Bellamy hadn't verbalized the question, he was starting to get his answer. But it didn't feel awkward or clumsy in the slightest. The younger male moved Bellamy's legs apart, feeling for his entrance before guiding his cock to it, and pushing inside.

The sensation caused Bellamy to let out a sharp inhalation of breath from the sheer pleasure, his head sinking against the bed as he closed his eyes, his tongue running over his lips. His words adding to everything, as did his gentle bites against his skin. Bellamy's hand went to the back of Jasper's head, gripping his hair. Bellamy tilted his head, his lips against his ear. "Don't over think it," he breathed against his ear. He knew that Jasper had come here because he didn't want to think about anything; he didn't want to feel pain. And Bellamy . . . wanted to be an outlet for that.

Which was why he was encouraging him now, to do whatever he needed to in order to get it out of his system. To just let his emotions unleash in this physical outlet. After all, Bellamy could take it. This wasn't his first time doing this, and he doubted it would be his last. "Just let yourself go." With that, his hands went to grip Jasper's ass, and as if encouraging his own words, he pushed him harder against him for another thrust. Bellamy knew that a lot of what happened was out of Jasper's control. But this, what they were doing right now . . . didn't have to be.

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Jasper was still searching for his breath, the pleasure of being inside Bellamy having knocked it out of him momentarily, when Bellamy's hand went to his hair. Clearly, by Bellamy's words, Jasper's inexperience had been obvious, but there wasn't any judgment in Bellamy's voice, just encouragement. Jasper kissed along Bellamy's shoulder, and then gasped when Bellamy grabbed his ass and pulled him in again. "God," he gasped, and then started shifting his hips, thrusting into Bellamy, steadily pushing into him.

Little moans and groans escaped him with each thrust, and he kissed his way back to Bellamy's mouth, capturing it in a hungry kiss as sparks of pleasure shot up his spine. "Fuck, you feel good," he panted, kissing Bellamy again and picking up his pace.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy arched his back a little, further leaning into Jasper's touch. The way he was thrusting inside of him, starting to pick up pace a little, felt good. Really damn good. As if reading his mind, Jasper vocalized how good he felt. "So do you," Bellamy managed to get out, his voice low, slightly hoarse from their actions. With each deeper push himself of him, Bellamy was experiencing the full feel of Jasper . . . and it was an incredible sensation. He parted his legs a little more, propping his knee up as his foot pressed against the bed.

He lightly tugged Jasper's bottom lip, sucking it between his own, trying not to thrust upward too much. Releasing it, his hand continued to grip his ass, giving it a firm squeeze. Not something that would overly hurt, but just as further encouragement. Which were what his words were meant to do as well. "Harder," he panted, wanting Jasper to show no restraint. Wanting him to feel like he could just unleash himself without consideration about anything else.

Bellamy nipped Jasper's jaw, urging him to comply with his words that were meant to be encouraging rather than any sort of order. Right now, Bellamy wasn't even thinking of his own pleasure, though strongly aroused. He would take care of it soon enough but in this moment, he wanted to ensure Jasper had what he needed. "Come on," he encouraged again, his nails lightly scraping along his back. Not enough to leave a mark, but a show of pleasure, to maybe push him a little harder. Because maybe, that was what he really needed.

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Jasper gasped as Bellamy shifted one of his knees up, the shift in position allowing Jasper to go deeper, and everything Bellamy was doing to him--biting his lip, squeezing his ass, dragging his nails up Jasper's back--was making it difficult for Jasper to think. He could tell Bellamy was enjoying it by the sound of his voice and the way he was moving under Bellamy, and Jasper vaguely thought he ought to be stroking Bellamy's cock like Bellamy had done for him, but... he wasn't sure he had the coordination for that, between the alcohol and his inexperience.

So did what Bellamy encouraged him to do and started thrusting harder. Faster. Reaching back, he guided Bellamy's other leg up as well and pushed his knees forward, moaning at how much deeper Bellamy felt in this position. "So... good," he panted. He wasn't going to last much longer, so he pulled back to look at Bellamy, wanting to see how Jasper's actions affected him, knowing his own expression was sheer need and desire.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy's body moved in whatever Jasper set him in, the shifting of his other leg allowing him to drive deeper. Coaxing another groan of sheer pleasure from Bellamy as the younger male complied with his encouragement. He was thrusting harder and picking up the pace, delving deeper and deeper into Bellamy, making him mad with pleasure. His hand fell to his cock, starting to stroke it quickly as he needed some form of release. While this was about Jasper's pleasure, he knew that tending to himself wouldn't take away from that. He just couldn't remain idle, his ache making it practically impossible to leave ignored.

Jasper's words revealed his enjoyment, though his actions certainly displayed that as well. But when he saw the expression on his face . . . that was when Bellamy was relieved for it. Soaking it in. Such a contrast to the expressionless gaze he had given him when leaning against the frame of his bathroom door. This, was what he wanted to see. Something filled with more life, more emotion other than pain. Bellamy wished there was a way he could keep that for Jasper . . . but knew that afteer tonight, he would return to his former ways. Guilt wasn't exactly helping with his arousal, so he tried to push the thoughts out of his mouth.

Instead, he raised his head a little, capturing Jasper's lips in a ravenous kiss, his hand moving more frantically along his cock as if to catch him up. His hips thrusting to meet Jasper's own movements as he pounded him. Breathless groans emitted from him against his lips, nipping him a little as he felt himself throb in his hand. "Come inside of me," he encouraged, his voice deeper than its natural tone, his head tilting a little to press against Jasper's ear. "Deep inside," he further coaxed, his tongue gliding along the side of his ear. He wanted to savor this, to have Jasper savor this knowing, the pain he went through every day. But not right now. Right now, he just wanted his friend to feel whatever pleasure Bellamy could offer him.

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Jasper was looking at Bellamy's face, taking in the pleasure apparently on it, but he saw Bellamy's hand move in his peripheral vision, followed by unmistakable motion that meant Bellamy was stroking himself. God, it was hot... knowing that what Jasper was doing to him turned him on enough that he couldn't wait for Jasper to finish and take care of him.

When Bellamy lifted up to kiss him, Jasper lost himself in the battling of their tongues, and the nipping of Bellamy's teeth, and the way Bellamy was meeting his thrusts with his hip... and more than anything, the sounds of pleasure Bellamy was making mixing with his own wordless moans of sheer pleasure. And then Bellamy did it again. He told Jasper to come. Deep inside. And Jasper's body complied again, coming hard as he surged deep inside of Bellamy, waves of pleasure crashing over him.

He went limp on top of Bellamy, gasping for breath as he pressed his face to Bellamy's neck. He suddenly felt like he could just fall asleep, exhaustion hitting him all at once after what he'd just done. Topping was... hard work. But he closed his hand over Bellamy's on his cock, stopping him from stroking. "Wait," he barely managed to say, breathless. "Wait."

He sucked in a few heavy breaths, and then forced his body to move before Bellamy's arousal was able to fade, sliding down Bellamy's body and wasting no time covering Bellamy's cock with his mouth and starting to suck, cupping Bellamy's sac in his hand and massaging. Bellamy shouldn't have to get off by his own hand just because Jasper was suddenly tired.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

It didn't take many more thrusts until Bellamy felt Jasper release inside of him, the warmth of his liquid filling Bellamy's inside and damn it felt good. Everything about Jaspers actions and sounds felt good. The way he collapsed against him showed how spent he was from anything. Which, was of course understandably. This was usually the part where Bellamy held his sexual partner . . . but he needed to find his release first.

His hand moved hastily over him until Jasper ceased it, telling him to wait. Wait? Bellamy wasnt sure he could. He briefly wondered if Jasper wanted to leave him unfulfilled. . . but then he pulled up and sunk lower. Bellamy's eyes never left him as he watched him suddenly take him into his mouth. Bellamy sharply inahled, a strained sound of pleasure involuntarily leaving him when Jasper started to suck him. His hand massaging his sack added to the pleasure of course. Bellamy cursed under his breath, lifting his head a little to watch his cock disappear in Jaspers mouth, finding the mere sight added to his arousal. Bellamy hand gripped the back of Jaspers head, moving along with him as he bob along his length.

The older male's other hand gripped the sheet next to him. "Close," he breathed in warning, unsure whether Jasper wanted to swallow or avoid his release in his mouth. Bellamy couldnt help but thrust into Jaspers mouth a little, trying to show more restraint than he did before since this wasnt like thrusting into his ass. His breathing became more labored, more breathless pants and groans before everything hit him and he came.

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Jasper kept his attention on pleasuring Bellamy as much as he could through the haze of his own orgasm and exhaustion, and but the noises Bellamy was making, it sounded like he was doing a good job. He was ready when Bellamy told him he was going to come, but when Bellamy actually did, it was deep in Jasper's throat and he coughed a little, pulling back but leaving his mouth around Bellamy as he finished. He coughed again as he pulled away, trying to clear his throat and dribbling some of Bellamy's come down his chin as he swallowed the rest. He sat back on his heels, dropping his head back for a minute and closing his eyes as he tried to catch his breath.

After a moment, he lowered his head again and wiped his chin off with his fingers. He shifted and collapsed on his back next to Bellamy again. He could rest here a few minutes. Once the haze of pleasure fully slipped away, he could go. But for now, his body was exhausted, and his thighs ached just barely from thrusting into Bellamy.

Tag: Bellamy Blake

[Bellamy Blake]

Tag: @jasper420

whatever

THE HELL WE WANT

Bellamy lay on his back, his head press against the pillow as his chest heavied. Basking in the euphoric aftermath of his orgasm, trying to soak it all in as everything felt like it was a pleasurable haze. The small cough caught Bellamy's attention as he looked at Jasper through heavily lidded eyes. The small residue of his release on his lips made Bellamy fight the urge to lick it off. Adding to the pleasure was the fact that Jasper had swallowed everything. He closed his eyes again for a moment as he worked on catching his breath. He felt the weight shift next to him in a slight dip, knowing without seeing that jasper was laying next to him.

Bellamy turned his head, opening his eyes to look at the younger male. He hoped he stayed the night, he looked exhausted enough to but he also didn't want to ask again, fearful of ruining the moment for Jasper. Instead, Bellamy pulled the blanket out from under them and draped it over their bodies. He knew that this could back fire, but chanced it. Shifting closer to Jasper, Bellamy slightly turned Jasper, loosely wrapping his arm around his front so it draped over him. Should he wish to break free of this position, the option was there. He inched closer, Bellamys chest pressed against Jaspers back, briefly wondering if it was selfish of Bellamy to derive warmth and comfort from their bodies being so close. Bellamys lips kiss along the side of Jaspers neck to the crook of it, before just laying his head against the pillow, taking in the scent of Jaspers hair.

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Jasper sucked in a breath when he felt Bellamy cover them up, knowing he should leave, but then Bellamy was guiding him to face away from him and tucking his body against Jasper's back, kissing along his neck briefly. Jasper actually opened his eyes again, opening his mouth with a sharp intake of breath, getting ready to protest, but... the words didn't come. His mouth couldn't form them. So he let the breath out and closed his eyes. He was so tired--physically and emotionally--and this felt so good.

Before he knew it, Jasper was running through the halls of Mount Weather, trying to kill Cage Wallace, and around every turn was death and horror until he found Maya dying. Over and over, the dream kept resetting to the start, always ending with Maya, although the things he faced before he got to her changed--Cage, Monty, Dante, Clarke, Grounders throwing spears into his chest, Reapers, hoards of zombie-like radiation victims, even monsters from books he'd read when he was younger... The third time he got to Maya's dying body tonight, he gasped and shot up in bed, feeling something heavy against his side fall away.

He looked around the room wildly, gasping for breath, trying to remember where he was (he'd woken up in some strange places since he'd started drinking). Adrenaline flooded his body, causing him to tremble. Bellamy. He was in Bellamy's room. He pressed a shaking hand to his eyes and forced himself not to start sobbing where he sat, even as he let out a noise somewhere between agony and frustration.

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