Nice to see you again

[Sae]

Sae saw Seren's smile when she spoke about liking TonDC and she could understand why, it could seem stupid because it was the place where they grew up, where all their life was but Sae understood how much she loved their village now that she'd been away from it for two years. Then as Seren said that she wasn't leaving her again, Sae answered "Good, because I don't think I could be away from you again without dying... Love you so much.". Her words were true, she would be unable to bear to be away from Seren again, she'd rather die. "Yeah, maybe she will... And if she doesn't I'm going to turn her so crazy that she will beg me to go out with you." Sae said laughing when Seren talked about her mother letting her out of TonDC if she was with her. It would be great if her mother let her do that but Sae guessed it will take time for her to do so and she needed to recover anyway so they will probably have to wait before being able to go on some walks out of the village.

After listening to Seren as she told her she didn't have to answer to the questions they will ask her when she will be back, Sae said "Well, I'll have to answer to these questions a day or another if I want to help our people... And I will probably never be comfortable about this... So not answering these questions now would only make it harder... And maybe once I'll have told everything I can I will be able to forget little by little..." she doubted about the last part but a part of her wanted to believe it. How couldn't she wish she could just forget about what happened during the two last years now that she was back? But first she will tell what she knew to help her people and the person who deserved to know it first was Seren but Sae couldn't blame her not to want to listen to what happened to her, she didn't actually really wanted to talk about it so when she saw her lover closing her eyes and heard her saying that she didn't want to imagine, Sae told her "Great, because I was going to tell you about this because I thought you deserved to be the first to know if you wanted to... but I see that both of us aren't ready for that..." and she felt kind of relieved about that.

Seren

[Seren]

“I love you too” Seren muttered, feeling the sting of tears in her eyes again. It had been so long since she’d been able to say those words to Sae’s face. They’d never stopped being true, she’d never stopped loving her, even when everyone around her was telling her that she must be dead. “Well, I can’t have you dying on me, I just got you back… Guess I’m stuck with you” she told her, smiling as she tried to make a joke. She laughed at Sae’s words “you’ll hear no objections from me, at least that way I’ll be able to keep an eye on you” she didn’t want to let Sae out of her sight, afraid that if she did then she’d disappear again. She didn’t want to lose her again, so much time had been wasted and she didn’t want to waste another second of the time that they had together. “But I have nothing against your mother keeping you under house arrest, at least at first… You need to rest and heal before you leave the village again” Seren told her with a smile, she didn’t want her to leave the village and get receive another injury, that would only prolong her suffering.

“You’ll have to talk about it eventually, but I won’t let anyone force you to talk about it before you are ready” Seren insisted, she wasn’t able to protect her when she’d been taken by the mountain men, she’d already failed her once and she was determined not to fail her again, this time she would do everything within her power to protect her. “I’m not going to pretend that it’s going to be easy for you, you might never be able to forget about what happened to you inside the mountain, but I’m going to do everything that I can to help you forget” she assured Sae, she knew that her memories were a source of great pain for the woman and she hated that she could do nothing to rid her of those memories, all she could do was help her to make new, happier memories. “I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready for that” she breathed, she’d spent two years imagining the worst possible scenarios, torturing herself by thinking about what could have happened to Sae and now that she was faced with the possibility of learning the truth, she didn’t think that she could face it “I’m sorry… I just can’t listen to what those monsters did to you”

Sae

[Sae]

Sae’s heart missed a beat as Seren told her that she loved her. So much time had passed since she last heard these words from the woman’s mouth. Few days ago, even few hours ago, if someone had told her that she would hear those words again, that she would see Seren again, she would never have believed it. And right now, they were together and her lover just told her she loved her and it just felt so unreal, she had forgotten how great it felt. Sae chuckled at Seren’s joke and said "Well… I can’t say that I don’t like the idea of us being stuck together…" giving Seren the most beautiful smile she could make right now. "I’ll certainly not complain about you keeping an eye on me" Sae said smiling again. She could understand why Seren didn’t want to let her out of sight again, she actually didn’t really want to be separated from her again because she made her feel safe. At Seren’s words about her not leaving the village at first, Sae took a more serious tone and said "Well… I don’t really think I’d be able to go for a walk in the woods for a little while according to my state…". She was aware that she needed to heal before going back to her normal life.

"What if I never was ready to talk about it?" Sae questioned not really expecting an answer. She felt so selfish right now, she was lucky enough to have a chance to escape from the mountain and to feel free again and she should want to help the other grounders who were still stuck in there no matter what but she couldn't. It wasn't that she didn't want to, it was just too much for her, something blocked her, it was stronger than her. She closed her eyes and her heart acked at the memories of all those grounders trapped in small cages in a dark room in the mountain. And before she could do anything to stop them, tears were running down her cheeks, these memories being too much for her. Sae focused on Seren's words hoping it would make the terrible images in her head go away. And it did work for the moment because it was impressive how Seren had a gift of making her smile even in a moment painful like this one. "You know what? Despite all I've been through these last years, I still feel like I'm the luckiest girl in this world because even if I didn't do anything to deserve that, I have the best girlfriend in the entire world." Sae told her lover, she wanted to kiss her so bad to show her how much it was true but she didn't letting the woman she loved all the time she needed. As Seren apologized, Sae reached for her cheek and looking in her beautiful eyes, she said "Hey, it's okay, you don't need to apologize, I understand. Just tell me if you change your mind and feel the need to know, okay?" If she was totally honest, Sae hoped that her lover wouldn't change her mind because she really wasn't ready at all to relive those two years.

Seren