Post by Deleted on Sept 7, 2016 7:39:53 GMT
  There was both a love and a hate that Ontari held towards trips like the one that she was currently on. There was a love because it meant she could escape from the watchful eyes of both Nia and her trainers, leaving her in a position where she might have a chance at having fun, or at least where she was not always under that constant pressure to be perfect at all times. That was good, Ontari liked the trips for that reason and she would enjoy this trip north for the festival of the lights because of that. But then, on the other hand, these trips held their own sort of danger. Ontari still had black blood, after all, and if she were to do as much as trip over and cut herself on a rock it would possibly destroy everything that Nia had done. If that happened she may as well be as good as dead. Especially in a large crowd where every single witness could not just be easily executed. That was a fear that Ontari felt highly on trips like this. Thankfully for her, she was not on this trip alone. Due to him playing a large part in a announcement that Ontari was to give, Roan, Nia's son, was there with her. Roan was one of the few people who knew of her secret and he would do all he could to help her in protecting it. Both being Nia's son and now, being Ontari's fiancé. That was what they were there to announce, after all. As much as Ontari had grown up with Roan, playing with him as a toddler and training with him a child and even having found herself with crushes on him at different stages, Ontari wasn't sure what she really thought of the idea of marrying him. It was a big commitment and one she knew was for nothing but political reasons. What would be more powerful than the future Heda married to the future King? It didn't matter really what Ontari thought about it, it would just happen. And maybe, possibly, her old crushes would come back and there would be some truthful feeling to the relationship. Even if Ontari wasn't completely sure what a real relationship was meant to look like. She hadn't really been witness to one, taken from her parents at such a young age and raised as a young child by a single person. And Nia, well, Ontari had learnt many things in terrible circumstances from Nia but none of them looked like love. Love was the thing she heard about and the thing that she was told was meant to exist for a marriage. Ontari had no idea what love felt like. That didn't matter, though, it wasn't important. The marriage would happen and Ontari and Roan would learn to deal with it. Ontari glanced over to Roan at that thought. They were at the edges of the festival, the first night leaving nothing much of interest to either of them. The lights that gave the festival its name had yet to make an appearance and Ontari was, to be quite frank, bored. There were many other things she could think of to interest her and none of those involved anything that was there at the festival. She wished to avoid the crowds and held no interest in socialising with any of the people there. The music didn't interest her and neither did the games or anything they were holding there. There was fighting, battles to try and find the best warrior. Just for fun. Whereas that did sound like fun to Ontari, she didn't want to risk getting cut. Her blood left her unable to participate in anything she might enjoy. So she was left with her only entertainment being Roan. In her boredom, she actually wondered if she might be able to get a certain kind of entertainment from him. They were going to be married after all... A smirk came onto her lips and she turned to face Roan. She had no idea how he was feeling, whether he was as bored as her or just being nice and loyal by staying with her. He probably had orders to stay with her at all times from Nia anyway. But maybe he would be as interested as she was in having a little bit of fun. The worst he could do was turn her down. She wouldn't be offended, per say, but she was bored enough that she would likely continue to push him. What else was there to do? Her mind could still go back to the little crushes she had held in the past and the different images her mind had come up with. He was well built and extremely strong. It definitely would be fun. The one thing she wasn't sure of was how to bring it up. Part of her wanted to be blunt about it but another worried that someone might overhear her. "Want to find somewhere and make our own fun?" It sounded stupid to her as she said it, not like her own words at all but she said it nonetheless. ash || Ontari is horrible and I hate it. |
